November 30 - Coldest Day Yet

So today is the coldest day I've had yet.
Wow.
The temperature never went above 20
Ouch.

Tonight it will be around 10 degrees in your language.
Which is very cold!

I am ok in the cold.
I just don't care for the cold in the rain.
I went to look at a car today, but it was sold.
Oh well; there will be another.
I found a Hummer, but they are out of the price of the car that I can afford now.
I will get one in a year or two

I really miss you both.
I mailed your presents for Christmas today and it hurts that I won't see you there for Christmas, I don't even know if you will get any presents on  the day.  I hope so.  I hope that you will like what I have arranged for you.

I am having a blanket made, for you each, with my picture on it.
I love you two.
I miss you so much.
I never stop thinking about you both.
Love always - Daddy xxx

November 29, 2012

Hi Guys

Last night I went out with the people from the office.
We went to play virtual golf.
It was fun.

I am still not good at it.  Suck actually.  But that is life.
I did hit one shot with 140 yards, but that was the best.
Hazel who works with me did better.

I miss you both.
I love you both,
I wish you were here.
I can't wait to see you.

I am trying to get the passports sorted out.
I am trying to make a new life here and get a place for you to come and stay.
Without you my heart is broken.

I know that everything went wrong and I can only hope that it will get better soon.

Love you with all my heart
Daddy xxx

Hi - Happy Hump Day

Today is hump day.
Middle of the week.
Almost December.
It's very cold here.

When i look outside it is cold and grey and horrible.
I need a car.  But alas can't find one yet.
Soon I hope
I need you both more than I need a car.
I want you both to be here with me.
I am working to get the passports done for you.
Need to find a company who can notorize the paper.
It's not as easy as it could be in the USA.

Kids, I really miss you.
I can't wait to see you get off the plane here in London.
But I fear that is a long time from now.
I hope that you don't forget me.
I hope that you still love me.

Love you always and forever - Daddy xxx

No Text

How come no text yesterday?
Did you have a good day at school?

I hope so.
I am ok.

My ears bleed a little these days, but that should go away soon.
Dan's sister sent me Motrin, that is nice, I needed them, and hope that they will make the headaches go away!

It's raining bad here.
Worst they have had it in a long time.
Hopefully the rain will stop for me to get home -my feet are wet and cold. Gross.

Love you and miss you both
Always and forever.
Daddy xxx

1st Day after TG Break

So today is your first day back to school.
Weird how you did not text me.
So strange.

But so happy to get pictures of you from Brian.
So nice that Other Mummy doesn't stop you from taking pictures.
I am happy.

I miss you both so much.
I love you both so much.
Wish just for a second I can hold you again.
If I have to give up my life to tell you in person, face-to-face that I love and adore you I will.

It hurts so much that we are not together.

Love always - Daddy xxx

One Month to Christmas 2012

Hi Guys

Today was a good day.
You sent me some pictures with Other Mummy.
Thank you.
I hope that you are ok.
I miss you both.

I love you both,
Today I walked about 10 miles, in the wind, which makes it more like 15 miles.
I have a friend in the Philippines, I hope that you will like her.
She is very nice.  She is only 23 years old though!

She has a son called Vaughan.  He's adorable, although not as adorable as you.

In all the time I have been here in England, Mom has not asked how I am. Sad :(
She does not want to be with me anymore.  That is ok, Daddy was bad, and a terrible person to her, but never to you.

I love you both with all my heart and that will never change.
Daddy xxx

Nov 24, 2012

Hi Guys

Another day has passed and I have not heard from you.
Yet again.
Why?

Are you that mad at me, that you don't want to text?
Or is that mom won't let you?

Just like to know that you are ok.

I miss you.
I hope that you still miss me.

Love you always - Daddy xxx

Black Friday 2012

Hi S n K

How are you both
I hope you are ok.
Did you enjoy your day with mom yesterday?
I hope so.

I had to go get something for my dad today, and guess what to do 24 miles too 4 hours!
Wow!
Not far just that there was so much traffic.

Oh well. It is all good.
Then since I did that for them, they took me to get dinner tonight.
I had a burger.
It was good, but not great.

Love you both
Kaitlin are you better?
Miss you both.
Daddy xxx

Kaitlin Sick

Thanksgiving morning and brother just texted me to tell me that you are sick.
I'm sorry.
I wish I were there to make you feel better.
To hold you.
To love you.

I miss you so much.
Love always princess
Daddy xxx

Get better soon

Thanksgiving 2012

Good morning and happy Thanksgiving.
I hope that you get to eat lots of great food and have a great time.
I hope that you've had a great time with Other Mummy and your cousins the last few days.
I miss you so much.
Today is hard for me - I won't have the people who matter most to me for Thanksgiving.
You and Kaitlin

I miss you.
I love you.
I wish you were here with me
Can't wait to see you.

Can you install Skype on your iTouch, so we can see one another?

I ordered the information for your passports, I hope to get that stuff to you soon
Love you so much
Daddy

Thanksgiving Wednesday

Hi Sebastian & Kaitlin

Well at least I found out that you are at Brian's.
I hate that I don't know where you are and that you don't text me sometimes.
Brian said you'd text me soon.

I hope that you are having a good time with Brian and the gang.
Stephanie, Tammy & Benton's there too right?
You staying there through Thanksgiving?
I hope you have a good time.

If you have to spend time with Mom though ok!
Don't be mean to her.
She is having a hard time also.
I'm sure that she wants you to be happy also.

Miss you and love you always
Daddy xxx

Thanksgiving Tuesday

Hi Sebastian & Kaitlin

How is the day going for you?
I hope you had a good day yesterday.
I hope you are behaving yourselves for mom, and whomever you are staying with during the vacation.

I miss you both,
I wish I were there with you.

Lots of Love always
Happy Holidays
Daddy xxx

Thanksgiving Monday

I managed to get to see a Church that was made in 1251; wow that is old.
It was so beautiful, you would have both loved it.

I also saw some American cars.
Miss them

Miss you too
It's so hard to go places and not have you with me.

Love you both
Daddy
xxx

Sunday

Hi

Today mom thinks that dad did not pay the tax for the car.
But I am sure that I did. If I did not then I do not know what I paid in January.
We will sort it all out.

Mom is mad at me.
But she is not mad at either of you.
We both love you very much, and need you in our lives.

Daddy was not a good husband and friend to mom, and she thinks that I just wanted to take money from her, which is not true at all.  Daddy tried to make money and in making money I spent some more than I should have.  But I did pay bills.

I will send you money soon.

I love you both.
I miss you both,
I wish we were all together.

It might be a long time until we get together again.
But there is not a day that goes by that I do not think of you two.
Think that you should be in my arms.

I love you
Daddy xxx

Sat 11-17-12

Hi Guys

I went for a drive today.  About 70 miles from the house.
Place is called Dover, it is where the Ferries come from France, to bring people.
It is amazing in 20 years very little changed there.
Beautiful castle.

I hope today you are ok.
I hope that you are having fun with Brian and the crew!

Love you both very much
Daddy xxx

Friday Night 16-11-12

Hi Guys

Today is Friday.
I'm home.
Alone.

I'm missing you.
I love you.

Daddy
xxx

Nov 15

Good morning it is November 15, 2012

Wow; it is 90 days since i left America.
Well I did not leave, I was forced out.

But 90 days.
In that time, I have had to move twice.
From Nikki's to Grandma's
Oh well.

Grandma is nice about the house.
Granddad too. 

Granddad lets me use his car every now and again, but I need my own to be able to get in it and go someplace to just think about you and Kaitlin.

Today my friend in the Philippines has an issue with her son.  It makes me think how hard it will be for us if something happens to you or Kaitlin.  I hope that you will always know that I love you and need you and want you to be here with me, or wherever I am.

Love you
Daddy
xxx

Nov 14 -2012

Today I had a little thing with mom.
She said that unless I pay the credit cards I cannot see you.

I will pay the bills guys, you have to give me time, but I can't just come up with $12,000 plus whatever else she wants anytime soon.  The bills are being paid off as we speak.  A couple of hundred dollars a month.

I love you both, and never think that I do not want to be with you.
Love always
Daddy xxx

Tuesday Evening

Hi Sebastian & Kaitlin

Thank you for the text as you went to school today.
That is awesome that you can send one every now and again.
Makes me feel more attached to you

I know this is all very hard.  I'm so sorry.
Not a second goes by that I don't think of you.
Not a second goes by that I don't wish I were there with you.

I love you both.
Nothing will ever change that.
Ever
You are my heart and soul, the reason that I get up in the morning.

You are the reason I exist.

Love always
Daddy
xxx

Tuesday Morning - Early

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

As i get ready to go to work in the freezing cold, I wanted to say hello.
Tell you that I love you.
I miss you.

I hope you had a good day off school yesterday and that you are enjoying school.

Love always
Daddy xxx

Hi on Sunday (11/11/12)

Hi Sebastian

How are you?
How is Kaitlin?
Mom?

I got a text that said that you love me - thank you.
I miss you too buddy - with all my heart.

It's almost 90 days since I was here, it seems so much longer.
Wow.

Walked a great deal today, like 10 miles.
I'm tired now.
But keeping slim, and looking better than ever before.
There are many messages on your Viber.  I hope you see the pictures that I send.

Love you buddy
With all my heart, Kaitlin too xxx
Daddy

Nov 10 2012

Hi Guys

Just to tell you that I miss you and I love you.
I hope that you are well. 
I would love it if you texted me.

I miss you.
Today I went for a drive in Granddad's car (again) and went to see some of the countryside of England.

Hopefully soon I can have my own car.

I also went to Mercedes World and saw lots of nice Mercedes Benz's.

Love you both
Hope you got the candy I sent for you.

Daddy
xxx
 

Friday 11-9

Hi guys

I took grandma out shopping today.  She says hi.
They miss you too.

I took grandma to lunch too.
She liked it.

Did you get the candy that I sent?
I hope so.
I miss you Sebastian.

I hope that soon, someday you'll want to come here and be with me.
I need you.
I wish every minute of the day that you were here with me.

I love you.
I miss you.
Daddy
xxx

Hi

Hi S n K

I have been thinking about you a lot.
I miss you so much.
I love you with all my heart.

I helped someone today, they needed $20 so I gave it to them.
Felt nice to be able to do that.

I know I will be sending you guys money soon too.

I hurt today, my eyes and my legs.  It is too cold for me here.
But I am getting used to it.

I need a car.
I love you 
Daddy xxx

Hump Day Nov 7 2012

Hi Guys

Today is Hump Day
That means it's the middle of the week.
It means that the week is almost over.

The weeks go by slowly for me guys.
It's because you are not in them.
I have no one to take care of.
No one to care about.

You are there, and I am here.
I need you to be here.  I can't wait for that.

No matter what happens between mom and I, I always loved you guys with all my heart. I never did anything to hurt you.

Yes, I screwed something up big time with mom, but that is old people stuff.
Didn't mean to hurt you.

Going to jail was the most horrible thing that I ever experienced.
I can't tell you how awful that was or how awful the dreams are now.

I will do everything in my life to prevent you ever experiencing that.

I love you and Kaitlin.
You are  my world.
Love always - Daddy xxx

Tuesday Nov 6, 2012

Today guys it was cold.
Very cold.
There was ice on the windows of the car.
There was ice on the garden.

I took pictures for you.
I will upload them in a short while.

I sent the pictures to Aunt Tina.
She offered to buy me a car - baby I will get a car this month.
Just have to find the one that I want.

I was really really happy that you texted me last night.
8pm your time; 4am my time.
It meant the world to me to see your text.
Last night I also received the pictures from Fiona that mom sent her.
Mom never sent those to me.
Mom doesn't want to me to see you that much anymore.
It's ok.
Mom is mad at Daddy.
But  not at you.

Just remember, that even though I could not be there this year.  There will be more years that we will be together.  When you come to England, Daddy will get to celebrate a birthday with you both, whether or not it is your birthday - you can have two birthday's and two Christmas's.  That way you get one with me and one with Mom.

Never hate me.
I love you both very, very much.
You are my world.

Love always - Daddy xxx

Day Out

Today I went for a walk near where the house is, and took pictures for you.
Then I went to Wimbledon and took more pictures.
It is beautiful here.

I miss you both.
Everyday all the time.

Love you very much.
Always
Daddy xxx

Day in London and Fireworks

Hi Mini Me and Princess

How are you both?
I hope that you had a good time yesterday for your birthday.
I texted you today, but nothing back - I guess that;s usual for Saturday now.

I went into London today.
Would have loved to show you here.
But it is so cold.
Freezing - you can see your breath.

I love you both
Daddy xxx

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Mini-Me
I got to speak to you and that makes all the difference in the world.
I am so happy that I managed to get to speak to you today.

I spoke to Kaitlin too - and that is lovely.
Even if she did answer "what" to me.

Aunt Linda said that she might drive up there on the weekend.
That's great.
I hope that she does.

Aunt Tina told me that you might get a party at Nhu's house today after school; that is great, I am glad that they are keeping you happy.

I hope that soon we'll be together again.
Maybe in England, maybe elsewhere.
It's very cold here.

Love always - Daddy
xxx

Night before your birthday (S)

Hi Sebastian

It's almost your 8th birthday.
Wow.
It's been 9 months since I saw you.
It's a long time.
I really, really miss you.
I miss you so much that I want to cry.
This is so hard.

I know that mom is taking care of you, and that you are ok.  
Do you miss me as much as I miss you?

I love you so much
Tonight this is harder than ever to write.
Sebastian, mini-me, never forget that I was there every day for you for the first 7.3 years, and I want to be there again for you.

I can't imagine life without you.
I hate not being able to talk to you, to hold you.

I love you Sebastian.  With all my heart.
Daddy
xxxx

PS: I love Kaitlin too.