Hi 6-1-15

Hi

Hope you had a good Sunday at Aunt Tina's

Did you have fun

Did you go anywhere?

Hope it was awesome 

Miss you

yesterday I went to a place near the ports 

It was cold, windy and damp

But fun

Took some good shots

I think

I hope

I also fell on the rocks

Have hurt myself but I should be fine

Twisted and sprained my left arm

That's the one I used to steady myself and stop a plunge into the ocean

😎

Good job I didn't go in

That would have sucked 

Lol

More than spraining my muscles 

What did you do this weekend?

Other than stay with Benton etc

I am posting the pictures that I took for you to see later

I do take the pix for you to see what I see

I know it's not the same but it is close

The picture that I posted on FB for you both got a lot of attention 

Erik (slave) says hi by the way 

The Mustang was cool wasn't it?

Wow

I'd love one of those again

But an Escalade is better 

As it will hold us all 

Much safer too 

Weird though sitting in the mustang was like being home 

Lol

😎

I have started to drink the water with flavoring at the office

I like water

I like flavor better 

Don't do it with each glass but it does make it easier 😎

I got Gatorade on the weekend

I miss Gatorade 

It's so delicious

The blue one

And a couple of Snapple drinks

The Tesco (store) by my house sell it as its a big military area

Lots of American's there

It's not cheap but for England not so bad

I make 1 bottle last 2 days at least 

I miss you 

I love you 

I wish I were there to hold you and be held by you 

You are the best most adorable children in the world

You are my world

Love always and forever 

Dad xoxo

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Hi 5-31-15

Hi 

I hope that your Saturday was a good one

Mine was

I ended up at the beach and picked the right day to go as it is raining here now

It was a lively drive there and back and a lovely walk on the beach

I also ended up walking by the river back in London as well

Awesome

Plus as you know I saw a late model mustang

The 50th anniversary one 

That was amazing

Such a lovely noise 

All good

I got home and felt sad 

Mainly because I can't be there with you 

I can't share experiences with you

I feel bad that I can't go to awards and I can't support you

Sorry

I wish with all my heart that I could be part of your physical lives 

Soon

I hope

It is all that makes me get up and go places

But it isn't enough for me 

I don't think so 

I want more

I guess I am greedy

Sorry

I am really really sorry that I am not a good father and that I am not there 

If I was there I would be at your soccer games, the karate and the gymnastics

I'd be at the award and assemblies 

I just can't right now

Immigration say no

Immigration might never let me home

Who knows 

They are sure taking their sweet time to get back to me

We'll see

Wait and see 

That's all we can do

I love you 

I wish I were there with you 

I wish I was taking you for breakfast and the beach walks 

I wish I could hold you again 

Love always and forever

Dad xoxo

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It's raining again here 

Surprise surprise surprise ☔️☔️

Hi 5-30-15

Good morning

How are you?

Hope you are well

So proud of you for your reward for patience 

That's awesome

Wow

Cool

Love you 

What else has been happening in school?

Hope it's a good week for you both 

It's almost the end of the year

So exciting.

The year has flown by

Do you think so?

I do

I wish I was there for the end of the year celebrations 

That would be cool

One year soon 😎😎

I am still awaiting the letter from immigration

Gosh it's taking a very long time

But now I think it could take even longer 

I read that they are awaiting a 6-9 month processing lead time

That will suck 

But still it's a process and one can't rush these things 

What else is new with you?

I hope you are having fun on the weekends 

How is soccer 

How is the gym

How is karate

Are you able to play with the T's or the B's on the weekend

I saw some Memorial Day pix from Annie.

They were cool 

You looked good

Hope you were having fun with Ma

She's looking good too

Nothing else to tell you really 

Fiona came down and stayed over last night 

We had some pizza and will go get breakfast

She's working tonight 

So she'll go back mid-afternoon

Which is ok with me

Wish that you and I were together 

It's hard waiting for the letter to allow me to go home 

But soon

Very soon one hopes 

Just have to be patient 

Hard work 

I think I'll go to the beach and explore places today 

Love you 

Always and forever 

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 5-29-15

Good morning my amazing children

How are you both?

Only a few more days of school 

Wow

That's so cool 

So quick

Have you enjoyed this year?

Are you looking forward to starting at Roosevelt Sebastian

Kaitlin are you looking forward to the new year as well

Another grade higher 

I am still waiting on my application to return

I read that despite an official 120 day application guideline

They are experiencing 6-9 month delays

So I might not hear back until Christmas 

There  is nothing I can do to speed this up

Despite the protests that I will get from Sherry 

Too bad

She's not moving here with me at all - ever

Crazy person suggesting a joint Facebook account 

No bloody way ever 

I've been resolute on that

She better not ask me ever again

How is school?

Are you learning anything these days?

Or is it just winding down for the summer

It was nice to text this week

I've missed that and you 

You are growing up and your words are getting more adult

That is cool 

It is just a shame that I can't be there with you 

I wish 

I pray 

I miss you

So much it hurts

I love you 

With all my heart

Sebastian do you gave a girlfriend?

What's her name

Where did she come from

Kaitlin

Do you have a boyfriend

Hopefully not 

But I know you'll be fine

I hope that mom is treating you both well

I hope that she is ok and well also

I don't hate mom

I sometimes think I do but I don't really 

I loved mom for a long time 

But I don't think she loved me all that much 

That's for us to decide later in life

Right now my only reason for being alive is you guys

I get up knowing it's a day nearer to seeing you 

With all my heart and soul

Love always 

Dad xoxo

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Hi 5-28-15

Hi 

Those pictures of you with hearts are so cool

Plus the one at Ma's house for Memorial Day

Annie uploaded that

Awesome 

My kids look so cool

I took an allergy pill before work today

It's kinda helped

But not much

I wonder whether I will be ok again here 

It just kills me that I am here with allergies missing you so much 

I want to be home

I need to be home

I know, I say it every day

I mean it everyday

Sorry K that you left the iPad in school

Hope that you get it back soon

School closes in a week

Wow

That's so soon

6/4

I was not doing good yesterday 

Went to Siobhan's house 

Just to check since she's away 

I took an avocado

Ate that at my place on flat bread

Was quite tasty tbh

I enjoyed it

Sherry is asking about Jess

I do not  talk that much anymore

Sherry gets upset when I speak to anyone else

It's craziness

She's abusive 

I hate it

But I have to accept it for now

Oh well

It's just like mom

Need to know everything all the time 

Lol

I miss you

I love you 

I don't really have much to say today 

I saw a nice Ford Explorer yesterday - 2003 model

Face lifted

Very cool

Right hand drive (for her) only one in the world

$8,000 

Too much for me

Never mind

I'll fix the Lexus

(Brakes, noise and radio)

Then she'll be fine again

Love always 

Forever you daddy 

Dad xoxo

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Hi 5-27-15

Good morning 

How are you?

Thank you for your picture 

That was lovely 

Tammy and you look amazing

I miss you 

What did you learn at school?

Anything good

Your end of year party is coming up soon

Wow

This school year went very quickly

Did you think it went fast?

Hope so

Yesterday at the office was hectic

As always

But just seemed worse for some reason

The iPad was playing up

The laptop is playing up

Now my office email is playing up 

That's just not fun at all

Ok well it's all good

I'll get all the electronic issues fixed

Father's Day is coming up next month

I'll get grandpa a card from you both

Hope that's ok

Sherry just emailed me and said that she's concerned that there is no room in my life for her when I am home in California 

For God's sake

It's like I'm being stalked constantly 

It's not something that I need or want to discuss with her everyday

I got 2 days this month where she wasn't crazy

It's hard work

Being single is much better / easier

At least that's how I see it

Someone commented that I am alone too much

Nah

I can deal with that 

I'm not lonely 

I'm just alone

There's a massive difference

Love you always and forever

You are my world 

Always 

No one and nothing will ever come before you

Dad xoxo

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5-26-15

The Blogs
All the blogs I've written this month have not saved correctly
Joy
So sorry
I really and truly think of you constantly
And now the blog doesn't work at all

I'd been writing via email and cutting and pasting into the body of the blog
Guessing Google has stopped that function and will only paste a small percentage of what I write

What a bloody nightmare
I will start to write on the blog itself and try to get that working - then copy/ paste into an email

Love you
Always and forever
Dad xoxo
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Hi 5-26-15

Hi Sebastian & Kaitlin

Hope all is well

What have you done for Memorial Day weekend

I know you went to see Tomorrowland

Did you have a nice day with Uncle Vince and Aunt Vina

Hope so

I had a nice lunch with Fiona 

That was cool

No Kyree so that was better 

Ben is in Africa with his dad

Millie was at work

So nice to relax and chill yesterday morning 

Heck of a shock to be up at 5 this morning though

Sometimes I wonder if a lay in is worth while at all 

I'm getting sick of the people that I work with 

They are like special needs people 

They set things up so stupidly

I just don't get it 

Frustrating to be honest

Never mind

Just another day at the office 

This morning just after brushing my teeth I threw up

Strange

I think the tiredness and the toothbrush / toothpaste made that happen

Weird

Don't feel as if I will throw up now

But that's the way that things go

I hope you guys are both well

How's mom?

She ok?

How's her work?

Still nice and busy?

She still at the same place?

I miss you all

Yes, even mom

I miss home

The house, the car, the neighbors

I miss the freeway and driving on the right side 

I miss it all

Mostly I miss you both

I don't know how I get up and face each day

But I do

I do it, I think well.

I hope you are ok too

Miss you

Love you

Always and forever 

Dad xoxo

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Hi 5-25-15 - Happy Memorial Day

Happy Memorial Day

I hope mom is off and you get to do something cool and fun today

How are you 

How is mom

How are the B's and T's

Have you seen them this weekend 

Hope so

I was with Fiona and Millie with Kyree yesterday

Omg that 2 year old is a nightmare 

But it's all good 

I don't mind.

Just made it a very long day 

Was so thrilled to get rid of him mid-afternoon

Went so quiet and could breathe

Lol

What movie did you watch

Whee did you do

Who took you 

I love the new Facebook cover photo

That's cool

The fire is lovely

I saw some nice Oceanside beach pix yesterday from Deborah's friend on FB

That is awesome

In real life I saw the worlds oldest iron bridge 

Cool

Then saw the RAF Planes at a museum 

That was way cool

Have had a good day 

Even enjoyed the company for a change 

Lol

I was dreading this weekend

Don't know why

But was

I almost didn't come

Oh well life 

I miss you 

I love you 

I want to hold you 

I want to hold you forever

Soon

Sherry thinks soon I'll hear from the USA and I'll be home

I hope she's right 

I pray she's right 

Lots of love

Always and forever 

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 5-24-15

Hi

How are you both?

I hope all is well

I hope you had a stood Saturday 

Mine was nice

I have spent the time with Fiona, Ben and Kyree along with Millie

Kyree went to Fiona's sisters yesterday for a few hours so as Ben and I could watch the Avengers with Fiona at a movie

Kyree is 2

He's a pain

Lol

We also took him to the park 

He liked that 

And McDonald's

He loved that 

He ate fish fingers 

Weird

But all good

He's a pain

Really

He doesn't like to sleep 

He's scared he's missing something 

But it's ok

This morning he's in Millie's room

Lol

Poor Millie

He's already antagonized me 😎😎

He's fine

But needs a little more discipline

He gets away with a great deal

But then so do Ben & Millie

But that is cool as they are way older 

The Avenger movie was good

Thor was cool

Ironman is always the best for me 

I like the actor

What have you done this weekend so far

Anything

Gym

Soccer

Karate

Vietnamese class?

I hope whatever you are doing you are having a good time

One of the people who used to go in the store emailed me

That's cool

He was and is a really nice person

He's setting up a security company 

Hopefully if / when I return I'll get to be part of it again 

That at least would be a good job to have while I get the research grants going again.

Fiona has everything so loud

I don't understand 

When you have company I hope that you are that not rude 

Lots of love 

Always and forever 

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 5-23-15

Good morning 

How are you?
I hope all is well
I hope you are having a good weekend this weekend 

Happy Memorial Day weekend
Love you 

Thank you for texting me yesterday 
That was very nice
It is so lovely to get a text 
I miss you so much that those things make the day / week so much better 
It was amply timed too
I'd been having a bad day
Lol
Work stuff
Just frustrated me
Makes me cranky especially when I have stuff I need to do
Anyway 
That's life right?

You said you'd be staying home for the weekend 
That's sad
Why
Doesn't mom want to take you out for Memorial Day 
It's a big holiday 
I remember 

I'm sorry that there's no plans
Do you still like the beach: Santa Ana and more?
Do you remember all the trips we'd take as much as possible 
Even if it were just a quick one someplace
Do,you remember the one to Palm Springs 
I think that I remember that one the most because it was the most recent
It was so lovely and warm 
Wow
I miss that 
I miss you 
I wish I was with you now
I wish and pray for that every day

I had a long talk with Sherry yesterday 
She's a little more understanding now
I've explained that I can't deal with her here 
There's no way and she's kinda accepted that
Her communication skills aren't great and when i get flustered I can be too vociferous 
But all in all I think she and I are on the same page now
Thankfully 
That's what we needed 
A "come to Jesus" meeting 

Anyway we'll see how long that lasts 

I had a horrible thought the other day 
I drive so much and to so many places not even just for work 
But 
If there was an accident I wondered if anyone would ever know
Like you guys
I just couldn't help thing that 

Last night I left my office at 7
I arrived at Fiona's at 11
That's 4 hours to travel 100 miles 
That's crap
It took 2.5 hours to do 30 miles 
That's the same speed as 150 years ago!!
Even LA isn't that bad 
And at least LA there's lots of cars to look at that are nice 
Not to mention pretty girls 😎😎

It was an arduous drive and I had way too much time to think 

Oh well
All good now
Anyway I'll let you go

Love you 
Always remember that no matter the distance 
I am forever in your heart 
I am dad
I'll always be dad / daddy and that will never ever change 
I love you 
Always and forever 
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Hi 5-22-15

Hi

How are you?

Hope you are well

Hope you are looking ahead to a good Friday 

Mine is ok

At the office pre 7am

Yuck

But that's really ok

I'll try to get out of here in 12 hours 

Sounds so long

Lol

Sherry and I had a fight

It's ok

She'll likely be fine in a few days 

Or not.

Whatever.

What she wants is impossible for me to give

I can't give her happiness as my happiness is centered around you 

Without you I am not alive 

I'm not happy 

I'm not me 

It's ok

She will get over it

We need one another but I can survive 

I've survived worse

Jail being one of them

Now I am in my own self made jail 

My own self made hell

It will all go away on my return to San Diego and being able to see you 

Work has been hectic this week

But it's all good 

It is always better to be busy than bored

How is school?

How was the project 

What grade did you get?

I hope it was a good one!

But so long as you did your best daddy is always proud

I miss you 

I love you 

Always and forever

Dad xoxo

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Hi 5-21-15

Hi

Hope you are both well

Hope your fifth grade project was a good one

I saw pictures that Aunt Tina sent to me

That was awesome

You wrote a video game app

Wow

That's way cool

Very proud of you and your team mates

Brilliant 😎

I texted Dave and said to wish aunt Tara a happy birthday

She's in jail

That seemed the right thing to do

He didn't text me back

So I'm guessing he's not interested in that

That's ok

I'm done with the episode 

I tried.

I have also texted Aunt Deborah

She's very hurt and has broken her back

But she loved the pictures that I sent her of you and Tammy

I also spoke to Aunt Linda

She's ok

She's having a hard time in Utah

I understand that

I would too

It's amazing how you can be taken from California but California can never be taken from you 

That's how I feel

What else is there happening in your lives

Do you have girlfriends / boyfriends - if so who?

How are the B's and the T's

Do you still see Shyla and Tina?

Are you both ok?

Counting down to summer?

How's mom

Is she ok

I know that she'll never want to see me again

I totally understand

But that is between her and I 

She is still a good mom and a good person 

You should respect her and her wishes 

Always 

I hope she's treating you ok

I hope she's allowing you some American food

I miss you 

I love you

I wish I could take you to Carl's Jr for a good quality burger 

That would be awesome

Love always and forever 

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 5-20-15

Good morning 

How are you both?

Thank you for the text last night

I needed to hear / read that you loved me

It's needed every now and again

Sherry made the day very unpleasant 

Then she found out about her brother 

He's had a brain aneurysm

So that is quite bad

She should hopefully be all over that for a while

Hopefully 

And with that I mean that she will stop the pathetically anal letters 

The ones about being married in England and that she can't wait for me blah blah blah

She needs to get a grip and grow the hell up

There's no way that I can marry here and she can live here happily with me I'm England

Every day is a chore here 

Every second I miss you 

Every millisecond I think of you 

It's just too hard to live with someone in the grey constantly 

Oh well

Anyway we'll see what today brings 

What extra stress I get to have heaped on me

I have told Millie that I will take her to look at cars this weekend

That will be nice

She's looking at some random stuff

But it is all small and sub $1000

About what she can afford 

So all good 

I don't mind taking her

That seems quite reasonable to me

Fiona knows 💩 about cars 

Millie knows less

I can at least help

Work,has been hell this week

It's only Wednesday and i just want to walk 

A friend has a review at another company this morning 

That should be fun for him

I never had a review - unsurprisingly 

I never actually expected one

I just come in, work and go home - and work

It's life now

I do t really care right now 

I love you 

I've always loved you 

Since the second you were born

Well before that in fact, I loved you since I knew about you 

Cooking inside mom

That was awesome 

To be told that she was having you both 

Great days

I'm sorry that I'm not there with you 

That I don't see you 

That I can't hold you 

But in time we'll have that back

Love you 

Today, tomorrow and forever 

Always dad xoxo

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Hi 5-19-15

Hi

How are you both

All ok

I hope all is well

How's cookie

She ok too?

Hope so

I miss you

I really really really miss you

Each might this week I've gone to bed really thinking hard about the past and how much I messed up your lives and that you have no daddy there with you.  I can only apologize and tell you that I'm trying hard to make it better for you.

I am trying to come home

I'm a waiting period now

I am waiting for a rejection or acceptance letter for returning - could be a short visit or a long one, I do not know

If it's a rejection

Then likely I'll come to Mexico and ask mom if she'll bring you there 

But we'll all need to remember that you'll have to go home at some point.

Don't know if that will be too hard for you 

I will certainly be very hard on me

I talked with Siobhan last night and she thinks that she's staying around another 12 months at least at the company 

We've given her a new job

IT Director, that's a cool thing 

She'll basically be a project leader and manage some people

They'll hate that 😎

She'll hate it eventually but it's a great thing to have on her resume

How is school?

I hope you've done well

I hope you're looking ahead to 6/4 when you break up

Wow

Summer is almost there again

Impressive

It's still raining and cold here 

Yuck

It always will be raining and cold here

One of my friends told Eamonn (owner of the company) that she'd miss me when I go home

Duh

I've not told him that I'm leaving anytime soon

So that's a shock to me to hear from her

Silly people

I also noted last night from Siobhan that many clients like me and respect me

That's good to know

Of course when people tell Eamonn he gets defensive about the remainder of the team

And says that they are all great also

As he should

At least it's nice to know I'm welcomed and useful by clients

It will be nice to use that as leverage for a pay increase

I need to start to send more money for you both 

Lots of love

Always and forever

Daddy xoxo

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