Hi 1-1-17

Good morning and happy new year 

I hope that the flight was a good one 

I hope that you enjoyed London and seeing me

I know you did 

Taking you to the airport was one of the hardest things I've ever done.

Wow

I so didn't want to let you leave

There isn't a bone in my body that didn't want to hold onto you

I wanted to drag you away and take you home

I stayed watching but you'd gone in

I couldn't see you anymore

But I stayed there - hoping you could run out to me

As I was writing this you called me 

So sweet 

Princess

I miss you so much

My face is leaking again 

I am sorting the pictures we took

Almost 500

Pretty good 

I've put them into a couple of albums 

Including one with the three of us together

Thought that would be cool

I hope that's ok

I'll send them all to you on a disk / USB stick 

Too many to email 

I am really missing you

It's killing me 

I don't know what to do

I just want to jump on a plane and be there and hold you again

You said mommy will take S to the ER today 

I hope he's ok

I hope you let me know how that goes 

I miss you so much

I love you with all my heart and soul 

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo

😘😘❤❤💋💋👀👀😊😊😎😎🇺🇸🇺🇸💑💑👣👣☀☀💕💕💖💖😍😍👫👫

Hi 12-31-16

Hi

One of the saddest things I've got to do today is take you both to the airport

Omg

Just the thought is killing me

Wow

I have to hold you and then let you get on the plane and fly out of my life again

That's so hard

So very hard

But

I have had a great 10 days with you

I've lived every second

Even the ones where you were upset that Sebastian sat in the front when it was your turn Kaitlin

I've loved going to bed and holding you 

I've loved waking up with you

I've loved to be needed 

It's given me new strength to push ahead again this year coming 

I've been without you so long it's been so hard 

But today I have you 

Even for a few short hours

But they are great hours

Wonderful 

Life is good 

Daddy is thrilled that you came here 

Daddy is thrilled to know you love me 

I can't wait to see you again 

Soon 

Is it May yet?

I hope May comes around soon

I need it 

You need it

You can call me or text me or email me anytime 

I am always here for you 

I hope Cheeseball is ok and that you get Cheesefries soon

Love you with all my heart and soul 

Always have and always will - forever 

Daddy xoxo

😎😎👣👣☀☀😊😊👫👫😘😘😍😍💑💑💋💋👀👀💖💖❤❤🇺🇸🇺🇸💕💕❤️❤️✈✈

Hi 12-30-16

Hi

It is our penultimate day together today

Lunch with grandma and grandpa and then play date with O&A

I hope that's a good plan

I thought maybe we'd go drive around Richmond park and see if we see any deer or something like that

Is that ok?

We'll see

I'll make reservations at Pizza Express for us and Grandma etc

This evening dinner is a dessert 

Yeah

Just for the hell of it 

Today daddy is 177 pounds 

That's from eating so much last night 

Lol

I'll lose weight 

I'll also stop all alcohol forever 

No more bad foods etc 

Except occasionally French fries ok

Goal to be at 160 by April 

Is that ok?

I hope so 

I've had an amazing time with you both 

As I had hoped 

I hope and think that you've had a great time with me also 

Sherry asked me to remind you that this time of year is for God 

That we are God people 

That God is important 

One thing that does matter is that you know that no matter what Jesus is there

He protects us

He challenges us

He makes life better 

I love you

I have loved having you here 

I don't not even for a second want you to leave 

Daddy xoxo

😎😎💕💕👀👀👫👫💋💋😘😘🇺🇸🇺🇸💑💑❤❤😊😊👣👣😍😍☀☀💖💖

Sent from my iPad

Hi 12-29-16

Hi

I hope you had a great day yesterday with me 

I didn't know. Kiki was going to be at Hampton court

But that's ok

O and A are well behaved mostly

I hope that the ice skating was fun

I hated it

But I loved the time with you 

That's what is important to me 

To be with you 

Today we'll do something different

Let's go build a bear

We'll do one each

You'll get to take your home and I'll keep one

I think that will be a good reminder 

Then we'll have lunch 

American food

Then we'll go to the toy store 

You can get something each

Then come back to 66

Tomorrow maybe we'll do a pottery class

Then lunch with grandma and grandpa 

Then the rest of the afternoon with Oliver and Annie

Sound good?

We'll also need to pack up your stuff too 

It's going to be so hard without you 

Omg 

I'm already devastated to think you won't be here 

😢😢

I've really enjoyed our time together

I love you

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

😎😎💖💖❤❤💋💋😊😊😘😘💑💑😍😍👫👫👣👣🇺🇸🇺🇸💕💕☀☀👀👀

Hi 12-28-16

Hi

How are you both doing

I hope you had a good day at Portsmouth 

I did

Sorry the elevator was out at the tower

But it was worth it 

I think so anyway

Today we'll go ice skating

Not sure if we should go to London to do that or if we should go local?

What do you think?

Anyway we'll decide later

We could go see the Crown Jewels 

I want to have quality time with you 

To do things that you'll like 

Or later this afternoon - we would do something for the future

A picture together 

A proper one?

Or we could go make a bear for one another 

Or we could do a ceramic thing and put our hand print on a plate each 

What do you think?

 Whatever you all want to do it is fine with me 

I just enjoy the time we are together 

I miss you so much and love you with all my heart and soul 

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

😎😎💋💋💕💕👀👀👫👫😘😘👣👣❤❤😍😍😊😊🇺🇸🇺🇸💖💖☀☀💑💑

Hi 12-27-16

Hi

How are you doing?

Are you enjoying the time with me in England

Today we're off ti a famous submarine and maybe ice skating afterward 

😎

Yesterday was Windsor

An iPhone and presents 

All good 😎

Sorry last night I got sick

I'll need to lay off McD for a while 

I have hidden the scissors again

Ha ha 

To find them 

Lol

I am so thrilled that you are here with me 

I am so thrilled that you are happy to be with me 

I can't wait to be with you all the time

Love you 

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo

😎😎😍😍👫👫😊😊💑💑😘😘❤❤💕💕💖💖👀👀👣👣☀☀💋💋🇺🇸🇺🇸

Hi 12-26-16

Hi

It's so cool that you are here 

I am so excited that I wake up and you are here with me 

Awesome and amazing 

Sorry that you got sick yesterday 

That sux

I hope that you are feeling better this morning 

You have American and English medicine 

😘

Glad that you tried the food at grandma's that's cool

It was ok

Today is French fry day

Sweet 

Awesome 

Amazing 💖

Good that you were finally able to see grandma and grandpa and what they like to do for Christmas 

Daddy is not into that much 

But for you and sherry he will be 

I love you 

I hope that you have seen these last few days how much I love you

I've missed having you by my side 

Love always and forever 

Since the moment you were born 

Daddy xoxo

😘😘💖💖💑💑👀👀🇺🇸🇺🇸🚗🚗😎😎💕💕💋💋😊😊👫👫❤❤😍😍☀☀👣👣

Hi 12-25-16

Hi Sebastian and Kaitlin

I hope you are excited this Christmas 

It's our first together in a very long time

I know K that you are sick this morning

That sucks

But the Tylenol will help

You are sleeping as I write this 

Sebastian is opening some of his presents from me

Not the ones from Grandma and Grandpa and Nikki and Co

You've opened all your presents from me already 

Lol

Anyway

Merry Christmas

My dearest two children are with me for the first time in 5 years

It's a hell of a feeling and a wonderful one at that 

I hope you feel the same as I

I hope you are having a fun time and a great trip 

(Except for getting sick)

I love you

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

😎😎💖💖👫👫🇺🇸🇺🇸👣👣😘😘😊😊💑💑😍😍💕💕👀💋❤❤

Sent from my iPad

Hi 12-24-16

Hi

It's Christmas Eve

We found a dress you like

Sweet

That's awesome 😘

I've had a great time today and each day

I enjoy having you with me 

I enjoy holding hands 

I enjoy being a dad again with you in person

I like the fact that you'll talk to Sherry as well

It's good mom is in the text with you

Great she's able to get around on her own

Good she's got a base place to stay 

Hope she's having a good time and able to relax a little 

I really love you with all my heart and soul 

I've missed you so much the last 4.5+ years

Wow

It's been so lonely and sad without you

So happy to have you here with me 

Love that finally I can hold your hand 

That you are able to sleep in the room with me 

Love you Sebastian 

My awesome due

Love you Princess 

My fidget monster 

Daddy xoxo

😘😘👣👣❤❤☀☀😍😍🚗🚗😎😎🇺🇸🇺🇸💋💋💑💑👫👫💖💖👀👀😊😊💕💕

Hi 12-23-16

Hi

I hope you are having an awesome time here 

I am having a brilliant time with you 

I have missed "us" and it is great that I have some time with you

I really enjoyed Brighton yesterday 

I think you'll enjoy what I have planned for today 

I hope you will

Possibly a drive in a formula 1 car 🚗 

I am glad that you are discussing the day with sherry

We'll just call her Sherry from now on, not Aunt Sherry

Ok?

She's going to be a part of your lives forever 

Mine too

I'm excited for the Christmas time and spending it with you 

I love you so much 

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo

😎😎😍😍💕💕👫👫💑💑😘😘💋💋☀☀❤❤😊😊🇺🇸🇺🇸👣👣👀👀💖💖

Hi 12-22-16

Hi

It is so thrilling that we have spent one day together

Wow

It seems so surreal

That we are finally together after such a long time 

I have missed you so much 

So very much 

It was amazing that cuddle up with you last night and hold you

It was also fun tickling one another

I'm glad that you FaceTime'd with Sherry as well

That's great

Usually I talk to her in the morning but today I fell back asleep

Oops

I'm having a great time with you 

I'm glad that we have today alone (most of it likely)

We might go see grandma this evening 

Love you with all my heart 

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo 

😘😘❤❤💖💖💑💑😊😊😎😎👫👫💕💕👣👣👀👀💋💋😍😍☀☀🇺🇸🇺🇸

Sent from my iPad

Hi12-21-16

Hi

You are here

Wow

It's unreal

I can't believe that it is finally you walking through those doors at the airport

I was so nervous

Still am

Not sure whether it can be the same as it was

How we were 

What we were like 

The three of us

I know it's never going to be the same

But there's always hope 

I'm so happy that you are able to spend the night here 

That's amazing 

It's a dream

It will be cool to wake up Christmas morning and you'll be here 

Thank you

I know it was a trek getting here 

The extra 6 hours wait 

Yuck

But I hope to God it was worth it to see me 

You both look so amazing 

So wonderful 

I'm so thrilled to have you with me 

Grandma and grandpa are equally thrilled

As is Aunt Nikki and of course Sherry

Sherry needs some reassurance that you'll want to be part of our lives

We'll send her a video later 

And you can call her at some point too 

I love you 

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo

😎😎🇺🇸🇺🇸👣👣👀👀💑💑😘😘💕💕💖💖😍😍☀☀❤❤😊💋💋👫👫

Sorry it's so cold here and wet 🌧⛱⚡☔😢

Hi 12-20-16

Hi

In a few hours you'll be here

Wow

That's so exciting

I hope you are enjoying the ride on the plane

Awesome isn't it 

It will be hard today 

For us all

But we'll all be ok with it 

I expect that Sherry will make things much harder for me 

That's her nature

I don't understand why

She's already started 

It's life 

I'll deal with the malfeasance and nuisance 

The truck is repaired 

I have to drive slower and not treat it like a sports car

But that's ok

It was a lot of money to repair it but again life 

The blessing is that you'll be here and that is all that matters 

I have missed you so much

I am so excited to see you 

I just can't wait 

I hope you feel the same 

I love you 

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo 

😎😎💑💑😍😍☀☀👫👫😘😘💋💋💖💖👣👣👀👀💕💕😊😊🇺🇸🇺🇸❤❤✈✈

Hi 12-19-16

Hi

How are you?

Hope all is well

Hope you had a good day with Nhu and the B's yesterday

The B's sure look a lot bigger

Wow

Did you go to the mall?

I hope so

I hope you got some good food too

I have an eye appointment this morning

Kinda worried

But also kinda at peace with it as well

Will work first then go in 

Should be fine

I can't wait to see you

24+ hours and you'll be her 

Wow

That's really cool

I miss you so much 

I can't eat to hold you

I love you

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo

😎😎❤❤👀👀👣👣👫👫✈✈😘😘🇺🇸🇺🇸💖💖😍😍☀☀😊😊💋💋💑💑💕💕😀😀

Hi 12-17-16

Hi

How are you?
How was your last day at at school
Did you have a good day
I hope so

Mine was kinda weird
Was at a rotary and gave the car some gas
There was a loud noise and a grating sound
The car stopped
I managed to freewheel it to a safe place
Then called for a recoverY

Turns out the prop shaft and the transfer box are broken
Oh well
Life
I'm looking to get it fixed by Monday for us
But might have to borrow a car to get you at the airport
Bit bummed
It's going to be expensive to fix
But that's life

It can be fixed and it's not the end of the world
But I'd gotten this car for you when you were here
It's life though
We'll still get it fixed hopefully b4 Christmas
My mechanic is awesome and he's going to do his best for me

I hope you are excited about coming
I am
I can hardly wait
I am so excited
Going to have dad take me to get an air bed for you and K to share
With sleeping bags
Exciting times

Miss you
Love you
Always have and always will
Daddy xoxo

😘😘💕💕❤️❤️😊😊👫👫😎😎🇺🇸🇺🇸💑💑💖💖👀👀💋💋😍😍☀️☀️👣👣😀😀✈️✈️

Hi 12-18-16

Hi

How are you?

Today is the final Sunday before you leave

Are you excited?

Hope so

I am

Very 

I can't wait

Hopefully I'll have my car for Tuesday 

If not I'll have Nikki's and we'll get my truck back later in the week

Life

Sorry

Wanted to get you in the X5 but that's just wasn't working 

I have a bed for you and I'm getting another one today 

I hope that's ok

You'll sleep in separate beds but together

That should be good 

In sleeping bags 

😎

Thought that would add to the excitement  of the trip

One bed is from granddad and one from aunt Nikki

I went with Nikki and Oliver and Annie to see some Christmas stuff yesterday

That was cool

They were excited and I saw actual reindeer for the 1st time that I recall

It was a fun hour

I miss you

I love you 

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

😎😎😍😍💕💕☀☀👫👫😘😘👣👣💖💖💑💑😊😊💋💋🇺🇸🇺🇸❤❤👀👀😀😀✈✈

Sent from my iPad

Hi 12-16-16

Hi

How are you

Last day of school

That's awesome

Hope it's a good day 

Almost last day of work for me

Can't wait

Lol

Worried about hospital on Monday

But should be ok

I hope

I can't wait to get it over 

That way it's a stress that's gone 

Oh well

What will be will be

I asked mom for a list of your doctor and dentist and opticians

Said that she could bring that here with her 

That way I can get copies of what happens to you

If you told me what happens - Doctor when you are sick etc that would be better

Sherry is ok

She's trying hard to be "normal" but she's upset at not being here

She's even more worried than I about Monday and whether they give me surgery

I told granddad that he might have to pick you up ok

Just in case I can't drive to the airport on Tuesday because of surgery on the eyes

I'm so looking forward to seeing and holding you

I'm so nervous though

I hope that you'll still like me 

I miss you 

I love you

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo

😎😎👣👣💖💖👀👀👫👫😘😘😊😊☀️☀️❤️❤️💑💑😍😍💕💕🇺🇸🇺🇸💋💋

Hi 12-15-15

Hi

How are you?

How is school?

I hope all is ok

I hope you are having fun

I have hospital on Monday

Cutting it close to when you come 

But should be ok

Hopefully they will be able to fix my eyes

Or at least tell me what's happening 

If not - cross that bridge then

Was sad yesterday as I think the worst 

I imagine them telling me I'll be blind

I could lose my drivers license 

That would be really bad for me 

But it is what it is 

Getting ready for work

It's just before 6

Will call Sherry as well

But she made me mad yesterday 

I really don't want to speak to her today

Oh well

I'll suck it up

That's how it has to be 

Lol

I miss you

I love you 

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

😘😘❤️❤️💋💋💑💑👫👫👣👣💖💖👀👀💕💕🇺🇸🇺🇸😎😎😍😍☀️☀️😊😊

Sent from my iPad

Hi 12-14-26

Hello

How are you?

I hope you are well

I had some bad news yesterday

I had a letter from the eye screening test

Wow

They say I have retinopathy and it's critical in my right and routine in my left eyes

Basically without surgery I will go blind

Really upset me 

Oh well

I've had the night to consider it and I'm getting better with the feelings 

But still hella hard to understand 

It's life

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

I had coffee with granddad last night 

He's ok

He enjoyed the coffee as did I

Grandma went to sing at a funeral and she's feeling exhausted after that

Feel so bad for her

It's their wedding anniversary today 

48 years 

Wow

That's a long time

😎

I hope school is going great this week

I hope your teachers are treating you well

Are you really excited 

This time next week and you'll have your first morning in the U.K.

I hope it's not too cold for you 

I love you

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

😎😎💕💕🇺🇸🇺🇸👫👫😀😀😘😘💋💋💑💑💖💖😊😊👣👣👀👀😍😍❤️❤️☀️☀️✈️✈️

Hi 12-13-16

Hi

Omg

One week today and you'll be getting ready ti land here

Wow

That's awesome

I'm so excited

I can't wait

Cool

Are you excited

Plus no more school or work

Sweet

That's going to be great

Thrilled for us 

I hope school was fun today

Usually is the last week, right?

I hope you had a good nights sleep

That's important

I can't wait to have some extra sleep

Mind you 

I'll still be calling Sherry at this time 

So who knows about extra sleep

Just no work

That's awesome tbh

I miss you 

I love you 

With all my heart and soul

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo

😎😎❤️❤️☀️☀️😊😊💖💖😘😘😍😍👫👫💑💑🇺🇸🇺🇸💋💋💕💕👀👀👣👣😀😀✈️✈️

Hi 12-12-16

Hello

How are you

How was Benton's party

I hope you had a good time

I went to bed shortly after I spoke with you 

I did speak to Sherry as well 

I told Nikki that you were asking about O and A

She's happy 

That's good

Yes she's gotten you stuff as has grandma for Christmas

I'll look at the Harry Potter series today and see what I can get you

Can't believe it's Monday again

Wow

The weekend goes so fast 

I could use going back to bed for a few hours

Next Tuesday 

Wow

Then I'm off work

That's awesome

I can't wait 

They 540 up thing is crap

Lol

But it's good for Sherry and I 

I did get some good sunset shots last night 

So that's good 

I'm pleased with that 

Barbados travel and tourism used my picture on their web site

That's pretty cool too 

I'm award winning and published 

Seeet 😊

I miss you

I love you 

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

😘😘👣👣💖💖🇺🇸🇺🇸💑💑💕💕👫👫😊😊👀👀😀😀😎😎😍😍❤️❤️💋💋☀️☀️

Hi 12-11-16

Hi

How are you?

Hope that all is well

I am ok

Well getting better

It's still cold

Lol

I went to the beach yesterday

That was cool

Happy I did it

Despite the rain and cold 

I ended up there and it was just drizzle

Got some good pictures

Hopefully award winning ones

Who knows?

It's good to be an award winning photographer 

It is an accomplishment 

Maybe when I come home I can look at doing that full time

That would be cool

Maybe 

Who knows

How was school this week?

I hope it was a good week

Work was ok

Hectic as always 

This coming week I'll be thinking wow only one more day and it's over

Except Monday and that's got two of them!

I won't miss work for the time you are here

Thankfully I have time off 

In the summer I think you'll have to stay at grandma and Nikki's during the day

Unless Sherry is here and then she'll take you places too 

I won't get 6 weeks off - sorry

I'd love to but can't do that 

I pay child support to the state now 

So mom won't be getting the cash again 

That's her choice 

She should have asked me for more instead she went to the state 

They will take their share and their time and make it as arduous as possible to do things

That's life 

We'll figure it all out 

I sent the money to Sherry she will send it to the state and the state will send it to mom

I can't send directly to the state as the state can't deal with someone outside of the USA

Life 😢

No matter

You are all paid up to date every month 

No question on that 

There never was 

I hope you've had a good Saturday 

Have a great Sunday 

I'll call you today 

Love you 

Always have and always will 

Dad xoxo

😘😘💋💋💑💑☀️☀️😊😊😎😎🇺🇸🇺🇸💖💖👀👀💕💕😍😍👣👣👫👫😀😀

Hi 12-10-16

Hi

Only 10 days left and you'll be here with me

That's so exciting 

Wow

Can't wait

I hope you are as excited as I

How was school?

I told your 4th grade teacher that you were coming here K

She's very excited for you

She'd just returned from Japan

She had a great time

That's cool

Work was good yesterday

I did as little as possible 

The MMR jab I had on Wednesday kicked in

I feel real bad.

Went to bed at 8pm 

For me that's so early 

Still tired this morning 

Thinking of going back to bed

I miss you

I love you 

I always have 

Since the second mom said she was pregnant with you

I always will until my dying breath

Daddy xoxo

😘😘👣👣😊😊💖💖👫👫❤️️❤️️😎😎💑💑😍😍👀👀🇺🇸🇺🇸💕💕💋💋☀️☀️

Sent from my iPad