Hi 10-1-13

Good morning 

First of October - wow

That's amazing

Another month past - wow

Thank you for the text saying goodnight

It is always good to wake up to a text from you 

Love you 

Just getting ready for work now

My room kinda smells

Think that the Mexican bean salad didn't do the air quality any good :-)

It's all good though 

I had some odd dreams 

I dreamt about America and Amber

You might not remember her - she was a friend when you were born

Then we list touch

Shame 

She was a very nice woman 

Oh well

Odd that I dreamt of her

But that is life 

The later I dreamt of the times we were on the beach and how much fun that was 

:-)

I miss you

I love you

I did get an appointment at the Embassy to re-do the passport application forms again 

That is later this month 

I will get that done and mail back it mom

You should have them around the 1st of November 

It only takes that long as the passport office in London is only open 3 times a month for me to get signatures verified 

Sorry

Once you get the forms back you can try again on the application 

Hopefully it will be there in time 

Love you

Miss you

Daddy xoxo

Sept 30-13 Hello

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin 

How are you?

Hope you are well

Thank you for your text as you went to be Sebastian 

Sorry I didn't get it until this morning 

I was sleeping too :-)

I have the phone turner off from 1045pm until 530am

Only because sometimes the work emails go wild and disturb my roommate 

She claims to be able to hear the phone vibrate 

Oh well

It is what it is

I miss you both

I love you both with all my heart

I will try today to get an appointment at the US embassy 

I need to go back there and get the forms notorized again for the passport app for you both

The notary has expired when mom sent off the application 

That was probably just because she didn't know that there was a 90 day deadline 

It expired in March/April

We'll do it again 

Try again and if it happens again we'll try again and again

It is what it is 

I want you to be able to travel but you can't do so unless mom gets the forms approved in the right time

I'll talk to her as well 

Hopefully :-) 

Fingers crossed we'll get this sorted 

I told my mom and she just said that I should go with it and just do what mom wants 

Which I have been doing

Anyway please do not think for a second that I have not asked for you to come here 

I know that it would be hard for you to go home after seeing me - but also you'd have to

There is no life here

It is just crap

At best we'll see each other in Mexico next year or here 

It will be 2014 until I can get an appointment at the Embassy for the Notary

Sorry guys 

They take forever 

Anyway 

Hope you had a good Sunday 

Hope school is exciting 

Hope you are ok

I miss you with all my heart 

Love always 

Daddy xoxo 

September 29 2013

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

Kaitlin it was so nice to see you yesterday 

Wow

It's been a long time since I saw your face live 

You look great 

Andrew looked bored and didn't want to say hi

Lol

Where his house?

Did you spend the night there?

Where was Sebastian?

Is he ok?

I miss you both

I hope you are ok 

I spent the night at the beach

It's a nice hotel 

Like the holiday Inn in Oceanside 

Odd designs and very nice 

Remember the last time we were in a hotel together?

Vegas 

With the everyone

Wow what a great place that was 

I miss that life 

I wish I were with you 

My friend was embarrassed it say hello yesterday 

She's nice 

Just a friend 

She likes to drive and explore places too :-) 

Which is great 

Miss you both 

Wish you were here 

Or I there 

I read some forums and they said that the chances of me getting back there are very little

But I will keep trying 

I will re-apply for the passports for you 

Mom let the notary expire 

Sorry 

I'd like you to come her but I don't think that would be until 2014 earliest now 

It might take me until 2014 to get an appointment at the embassy 

Sorry 

I can't force that part 

Darn

Love you 

Miss you 

Watching Eminem this morning 

Lol

He's got some good music videos 

Love you 

Daddy xxx

Sept 28 2013

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you?

Hope you are ok

Hope you have some good plans for the weekend 

I'm going for a walk this morning and then later I'll go driving 

Probably not going too far for the walk 

I was planning on a 10 mile walk but that is rather unlikely this morning 

The weather is not really the pre for that 

Thank you for telling me you can give me a smile

You are 100% right

Every time I get a text from you I smile

I love you 

That's why

I miss you more than I could ever adequately express 

I miss you every second of every day 

It hurts to miss you this much 

But we have to get on

We have to live

I live for the second that I can hold you in my arms again 

That is all that matters to me 

That is the dream that I have 

The hope that I cling to 

Love always 

Daddy xoxo

Sept 27 2013 Hello

Hello 

How are you both?

I hope you are well

It was so good to text with you yesterday Sebastian 

That made the week

 Couple of texts back and forth is always brilliant 

Thank you 

Just woke up and saw the pictures that mom put online 

Great pose with the bike

Who's place are you at?

Lovely bike

Love you both 

Miss you so much 

You both look great 

That is good

I want to hold you so much 

Just hold you and tell you I love you 

I hope you realise that I will never stop loving you 

You are everything to me and all I ever want is to hold you and love you 

I hope you know that 

Being taken away from you killed me inside and I might never recover from that 

The pictures and the texts are all that helps me go through the day 

Seriously 

Love you 

Miss you 

Daddy xoxo 

Hello 9-26-13

Good morning

How are you both?

Thank you for the goodnight text 

That was nice 

It means a lot to know that you are ok

Puts my mind at rest with just that one text

Thank you

I miss you

I love you

Are you enjoying school?

I hope school is better than work

Work is horrible at the moment 

Really bad weather yesterday 

But way fun driving in the rain and fog on the freeway

Loves it

Fiona said I was the lunatic 

Apparently she's been in the car with mom and she did not like it!!

Mind you it was raining then too 

Lol

I've never been in the car with mom driving so don't really know

Granddad is ok

He went to work yesterday which is good for him

Hopefully today he's ok too

Have a good day

I hope today will be great for you 

Love always 

Daddy xoxo 

Max Gascoine 

0744 791 2021

(Sent from my iPad)

Hello 9-25-13

Good morning

How are you?

Hope you are well.

I am ok

Missing you of course 

Wishing that I could take you to school

That I could hold you 

That I could help you with your homework

Later today I will get some money for you

I will send it tomorrow

I hope

Sorry that I am not sending you much 

I am trying to pay the credit cards off quicker however 

Once they are paid off I will be able to send you more 

Other than school how are you?

What do you do in the afternoons?

Who picks you up?

Do you see aunt Tina often 

Do you see other mummy at all?

I miss you

I love you

Work was crazy the last two days 

Hopefully today it's better 

Or at least less busy!

Love always 

Daddy xoxo

September 24 2013

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you both?

I hope all is well

Sebastian thank you for the text 

It is great that I get a text from you 

I hope to get more but one means a great deal to me

You know you can FaceTime with me at any time you want right?

Now you don't even have to do video you can FaceTime call!!

That's quite a good feature 

I miss you more and more each day 

I hope you realize that I only want to come home 

Nothing else matters 

I want to see you and hold you in my arms 

One day

I dream of that day 

How is school?

What are you learning?

I hope you're learning good stuff and enjoying it 

Did you make new friends this year?

Does aunt Tina get you any more?

Or the lady in the house?

Does uncle David still live there?

I hope all is ok

Lots of love always 

Daddy xoxo

Hello 9-23-2013

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you?

How was / is your weekend?

I hope it was good

I know that you know that you can FaceTime with me at anytime right?

I miss you

I'd love to hear your voices

That would be amazing

Did you like the pictures I sent you?

I hope so

I really miss you

I really hope that sending you pictures means that you get to see what I see 

I went to the coast and the countryside this weekend

It was nice at both places 

But cold at the coast as soon as the sun dipped 

Oh well that is life 

Did I tell you grandad fell off a ladder on Saturday 

I saw him Sunday he's ok

Thank God

I don't want to go to work today 

I want to stay in bed 

I need to stay in bed 

I need coffee :-)

I do t sleep real well anymore at all

I think it's coz I miss you more and more each day and I don't handle it well

I try to fill my days with walking and exploring but that gets to me exercise wise too

It's all good 

I'll survive 

I might go to bed early tonight 

Lots of love 

Daddy xoxo

Hello 9-22-2013

Good morning Sebastian and Kaitlin

How are you?

Hope you are both enjoying your weekend

Mine is ok

I went to the coast yesterday and took some pictures 

I will upload them for you to see later today 

I have a Rolls Royce car show today as well - and want to share those with you 

Also yesterday 

Grandad fell off the ladder 

He might have cracked his ribs

I'm not sure

I will go see him this morning and make sure he's ok

Silly old man shouldn't have been on the roof

But I do hope he is ok

I even saw them both yesterday as well

Wow

I fixed grandma's phone so as she can get iMessage when out of the house

You could text her anytime if you want 

I went to the coast with Jean

She is my friend

She is very nice

We kissed

I quite like her

I hope that you will too should you ever meet her

Funny Nikki asked me over for pancakes this morning 

I set the alarm on the phone and then wondered why it wasn't working 

I'd set it for night! Lol

Did you update the iPhone yet

Aunt Tina did and she loves it 

I don't think that the IPad you have will run the new software 

Sorry 

I will tell granddad that you send your love

Love always 

Daddy xoxo

September 21 2013 ~ Good Morning

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you?

I hope all is well

I hope that your school is going well

Are you learning new things?

What?

Are you happy in school

I hope so

I hope that your lives are going well

I am trying to pay bills there as well as here 

It is not easy

Please never think that I do not want you 

I do 

With all my heart

I want nothing more 

But it see you and talk to you I must pay the credit cards and restitution there 

These take a large amount of my income and therefore it is hard to save to bring you here

I also worry that if you come I might not cope with putting you back on the plane 

Or worse you won't want to go

I can't do that to mom

She does not deserve more pain and suffering and heartache 

No one does

I have learned that with few exceptions I don't have friends in London or America

It's a sad realization 

But it is one that I accept.

I have no choice

I have made a new friend in Jessica 

She is pregnant and due to marry her significant other in the fall or early next year

She is nice 

She has had a lot of heartache in the past.

I have a friend in Jean

She is a runner

She is nice too

She is black

She and I sometimes take the day together and go exploring the countryside or the beach

It's quite nice to have some company 

The friends I miss are you two

You were and always will be my best friends

I miss you both so much 

I cry at night sometimes with blue and yellow because all I have of you is them

It is so sad that we were split up over what happened 

I lost you

I lost mom

Mom hates me now

That's ok

It's only ever been about the two of you for me 

She knew that too

Maybe she just did not want to face those facts 

Anyway 

Today I will go to the coast 

Probably with Jean

She's in central London so might not make it to me by the time I want to leave 

If not I'll go alone 

Work started this morning at 5am with tickets 

Quite frustrating 

But oh well.

Work is sometimes horrid but it is work and it pays some of the bills 

Love 

Daddy xoxo

Max Gascoine 

0744 791 2021

(Sent from my iPad)

September 20 2013

Hello Sebastian & Kaitlin

Hope that you are both well

I am ok

Thank you Kaitlin so much for you text last night

That meant so much to me 

So glad that you still love me 

So glad that you remember me 

I love you

I miss you 

Been up since 330 today 

It makes the days very long

Think tonight I will stay in and just chill 

Not sure however 

Maybe I should go to into London 

I have a friend - Jessica

She is a client 

We chat on iMessage all day 

She's nice

She's having a baby in November

It's all the fashion

Did you like me holding the baby from my employee?

That baby was cute 

Almost but not as cute as you two 

:-)

Ok

Off to work I go

Miss you both 

Love you both 

I hope that school is ok

I hope that you have new friends 

I hope that the teachers are nice 

Daddy xoxo

Sept 19 2013

Hello 

How are you both today?

Hope you are well.

I miss you.

Yesterday I went to the beach

I wrote I miss you on the only real bit of sand I saw.

I love you as well of course

I went to the top of a cliff and really enjoyed the hike

It was refreshing 

A little dangerous but it's ok I didn't fall off

Kaitlin you sent me a text with nothing in it 

Are you ok?

I hope so.

I love you both

I'm off to work now

It is very cold here

Around 30 degrees I think 

Bummer 

Hopefully the heating will kick in shortly and it will be nice and toasty in the house

The car is ok

Brakes were replaced on the weekend 

Drives well again 

I like Lexi

She's a great car.

I made a new friend with a client

Jessica

She's nice

She's pregnant and moving to the Netherlands to be with her husband in a few months 

But it's all good.

Love always 

Daddy xoxo

Hello 9-18-13

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you both?

How is school?

Are you doing ok?

I hope so

Daddy is ok

Missing you terribly

I wish I was there with you

I wish I were able to hold you

I wish it were like the old times

That is what I need 

To out my arms around you and hold you tight

One day 

That will happen again

Not sure when though 

This afternoon despite the nasty horrible weather I might go to the beach

I need to drive 

It will be nice

The office is very hard work

The people are so hard to deal with 

I am supposed to be a manager but I am mainly just answering the phone 

Oh well

It is a job

Here jobs are very hard to get

Love you 

Miss you

Daddy xx

Good morning 9-17-13

Good morning (here) Sebastian & Kaitlin

Hope you are both well.

I am ok

Last night my friend cut my hair

His wife is a hairdresser and I thought better that I give them $ than someone I don't know - right?

Anyway she did an ok job

So I think I'll use her again

Amazingly today grandpa and grandma are going to go for a drive

Wow

That is impressive

I don't think that they have driven more than 15 miles in one stretch in years

Today they will do over 200

Wow

Good for them!!

I miss you

Yesterday I had lunch with Nikki, Oliver and Annie Rose

It reminded me of when you were younger 

Made me feel sad when I left

:-( 

I love you 

With all my heart

I will never stop loving you or forget you 

Not for a second

Lots of love 

I'm off to get ready for work now

Miss you

Love you 

Always and forever

Daddy xoxo

Hello 9-16-13

Good morning Sebastian and Kaitlin

I hope you have had a good weekend

Mine was ok

I met up with Fiona and Ben yesterday

Ben will be 13 shortly

In a week

So it was good to see him

He was amazingly talkative - yeah

I took him for a ride in my car too

Showed him the picture of the Mustang I saw on Saturday and he loved it ;-)

I think we'll meet up again 

It's a good 2 hour drive to their place so we met 1/2 way

Coming back was horrid traffic due to the rain :-( 

It's rained almost all night as well

Joy

It's also cold this morning 

I had the electric blankets turned on for most of the night 

:-) 

They make the bed feel amazing!!

Miss you 

Love you

Hope your weekend was a good one 

I texted you pictures and hope that you get to see them

Hope you get the daily texts before school too

I got you some things that I will mail to you soon

Love always 

Daddy xoxo

September 15 2013

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you?

I hope that you had a good Saturday!

Mine was ok

I miss you

I got the brakes done on the car – which was good.

They are bedded in now

Which is great!

I went to the beach, which was cold; but nice

I wrote you a message in the sand!

I wished you were with me

I hope one day soon

It is very cold here

Like diabolical cold!

36 when I got home last night! Ouch?

Anyway it will be fine later, I am in bed with a sweatshirt on!
Wish it were warm

It is at least not raining this morning – which is a good start!

Later today I will meet with Aunt Fiona and Ben

That should be nice

I will say hi from you both and I am sure Ben will return the statement!

Miss you both

Love you both

Took pix for you yesterday – hope that you get to see them.

Love always – Daddy xxx

September 14 2013

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you?

Hope you are well

Hope that you have some fun things to do this weekend

Not just homework

I got a text from Gerry – do you remember him?

He suffered a head injury and is not doing so well.

That is a shame

I also got a text from Other Mummy

She misses you

How was school this week?

I hope you learned lots and lots and lots

Work for me was ok.

Thursday was a very bad day!  But I survived.

I can survive anything – I’ve been to jail/detention!

I miss you

I love you

I wish I had you in my arms

I wish I had you to wake up to

How is Bacon, does he miss Blue?

I sent you texts with Blue and Yellow in them yesterday

I hope you get those texts!
I sleep with Blue and Yellow every night

Today I get to have to get the brakes on the car done!
Joy

But I think that it is important to get that done

Daddy xxx

Hello 9-13-13

Good morning 

I hope you are both well

I am ok

Work is stressful right now

But it is work

John is close to a pilot study for the company there 

That is good news 

I am nit really a big part of that anymore

But that's ok

I hope he succeeds 

The office here is a tad stressful

My team are not responding to things as best they can

That's ok

But they certainly have issues 

I need to fix these issues 

I need to get heavier with them

Yesterday I thought I was almost fired 

But I survived 

I am not sure if I will survive again 

Thank you for the text Sebastian

Bacon looks cute 

I hope that he will like Blue 

I will text you a picture of Blue later

Sorry when you texted me earlier it was dark and I'd get no picture

I was almost sleeping 

You know kind of was and kind of waking up at the same time 

I miss you

I love you

I hope to talk to you soon

Love always 

Daddy xxx