Hi Juky 1st 2014

Good mornings

Wow it's July 1st

Over 1/2 way through the year

That means I'm that much closer to seeing you again

:-)

That's awesome news 

How are you?

What have you been up to?

Hope you are well

Hope that you are having fun

I am ok

I have a lot of pain at the moment but I will be ok

I hope so anyway

I think that the pain is weather related 

Aunt sherry has asked that I don't really walk this week

So I won't 

I will just have a week off 

Just relax somewhat and try to be better

I think exhaustion crept in a little yesterday 

But I'm much better this morning 

Nikki took me out last night 

We ate at Prezzo

It was nice 

Great dessert

Omg she likes to eat 

Starter and main and dessert

Wow

I'd have just skipped the starter 

But since she wanted it I had baked mushrooms - delicious 

I expect that I gained some weigh 

Lol

Over time it will balance out 

I'm not all that worried about it 

What have you been doing?

Have you been anywhere exciting?

Who have you been hanging out with 

I hope you are enjoying your summer vacation 

I really wish I was there to take you places and have fun with you 

I miss you with all my heart

I wish I could hold you 

I wish I could see you 

I wish I could be with with you 

I love you so much 

Maybe next year we'll get to hold one another again

Love you 

Today, Tomorrow and forever

Daddy xoxo

Hi 6-30-14

Good morning Sebastian and Kaitlin

How was your Sunday?

I hope you are ok

I hope you have had a good weekend

What did you do?

I git back from Fiona's at around 7p,

The drive was long 

Almost 4 hours

But I'd stopped for a while

I do to know why but when I got back I was so tired 

I just uploaded the pictures and then kinda chilled and fell asleep early

I was in bed at 10pm

I think the weekend of driving caught up with me 

Maybe that and too much alcohol over the weekend 

Fiona and Ben should be on their way to Corfu or there already now

Good for them

I hope that they have a good time

Millie is already there and she's having a blast 

She's done so much she's sick too 

Weird is t it how a lack of sleep gets you 

Did I tell you Siobhan my roommate hit her head on the toilet seat

Wow

She was rushing thinking she was going to throw up 

And she brought the seat up she brought her head down

Ouch

There was one hell of a mark on her head on Friday night 

It's much better now 

But she should catch some serious crap from the office today 

Lol

Going to have dinner with Nikki tonight 

Should be fun

She and Mike have argued so not sure whether that's going to be good or not

Will see 

He's a tool sometimes but that is life 

I miss you so much

I wish I could be there with you at home 

I need to see your smile hear your voice and laugh with you 

It's hard getting up every day knowing that I won't see you yet again 

It sux

I love you 

Working in getting closer every day 

Love always 

Daddy xoxo

Hello 6-29-14

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you both 

I hope you are having a good weekend

Mine was pretty good

I took Ben to see Lamborghini's and more yesterday and after that we went to a transport museum and enjoyed that 

We got back just in time to watch 22 Jump Street

It's a 15 and here they are way anal about that but we smuggled him in 

We did get stopped but the guy took our word for it 

That was great 

Well thrilled

He loved the movie 

It was ok

I think it is definitely more for hap is age than for my age 

But there were trailers for some really good movies too 

Lol

Fiona enjoyed it as well

Once we got back to Fiona's place Ben made dinner 

He made me cheese fries and a double cheeseburger

They were awesome 

Amazing in fact 

I really enjoyed them

This morning not sure what we'll do but I'd like a Starbucks 

Yesterday they made the wrong one for me 

They made a caramel macchiato - very sweet 

I just wanted a latte

It's coz where we are in this part of England they only speak farmer !! 

They are so hard to understand 

As is Fiona

Oh well

That's life 

Ben and Fiona are off to Greece tonight so I'll leave soon

Amelia May is already there soaking up the sun

Good for them

I love you 

I wish you ewe here with me living this all first hand

I wish we were together 

I can only keep praying and hoping 

One day soon we'll be together again 

Maybe in Mexico 

If that's as close as u can get 

Never think not even for a second that I will or could replace you 

I want you 

My focus on life is to be with you to hold you again to love and cherish you 

I can't stand the time wasted apart from one another 

Thank God I got the time I did with you when I did 

That is what matters 

But my memories fade and I need to make new ones with you 

I need you both 

I miss you both 

I need you 

Do you still need me?

How is mom

Does she still have the boyfriend 

Are you calling him daddy too?

Love always 

Daddy xoxo  

Hi 6-28-14

Good morning Sebastian and Kaitlin

How are you?

Hope you are well

What did you do today 

What are your plans for tomorrow

Wish I were with you 

Aunt Sherry is in Sacramento 

She went to the drive in movie with Leslie and Amber and her grand kids 

She saw transformers 4

She has the Bumble Bee Camaro 

She obviously likes the transformers movies!!

She saying it's great 

I drive up to Fiona's last night 

What a journey

The freeway in London was terrible

So slow

2 miles in 39 minutes !!!

Ouch

The gout about 30 minutes from the house and the rain was so bad I came off the freeway

I was too worried 

Just sitting still in a parking lot it was worse than the windshield wipers could handle

Proper rain!

Lol

It cleared up a little and I got the rest of the way no problem 

I'm in Amelia May's room tonight as she's gone to Corfu - Greece

Fiona and Ben are going tomorrow 

That's nice for them all

A mini vacation is always good 

I'm going to take Ben to see Lamborghini's and stuff today 

Sounds like a plan right?

Initially I'd come up coz 1) Ben knew it was my birthday and 2) F needed someone to babysit tonight she doesn't need that now 

Oh well

I finally got paid this morning 

That's good news 

Thankfully 

I'll send you money in Wednesday ok

I miss you 

I love you 

I wish you were with me or I was with you 

Hopefully next year we'll be able to see one another in Mexico 

Working on that 

I hope and pray that it will happen

Love always 

Daddy xoxo 

Hi 6-27-14

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

Hope all is well

What did you do today?

Beach, fair etc

I certainly loved the pictures from the pier 

You guys looked like you had an awesome time

That's fantastic

So very happy for you

I very much miss you 

You mean everything to me 

Always have and always will

Yesterday I received a Father's Day and birthday card from the B's

That was nice 

I have thanked them and texted Nhu to thank her too

She said that it was all them and that they wanted to send me something 

That's very nice 

Inadvertently I told Sherry

And she got mad 

So I won't mention the B's again to her 

Shame as you are all a large part of my life 

But that's ok

She's not going to want me to have friends either 

Later on if she and I remain together that will be hard for her

I'm going to see Ben this weekend

That should be nice 

Was going to watch transformers but it's not out here yet

That's a shame 

Oh well

We'll see so,eyeing else instead 

Lol

Or we'll go see cars and stuff 

That's the norm

It's raining here 

Surprise 

I'd just washed the car

Lol

It always happens but I had bird poop on it so that needed to be dealt with 

Love you 

Daddy xoxo 

Hi 6-26-14

Good morning Sebastian and Kaitlin

How are you?

Did you enjoy the beach?

You said that you were going to the beach

That sounded cool

I had a 1/2 day from work

I had lunch with grandma

She wanted to take  out for my birthday 

That was nice

After that I met up with Vathani and had a coffee

That was nice as well

Where we met 

Wow the town is horrible

It's certainly the ghetto

I think I'd have been better off in the military there 

Yuck

But she lives near there and the coffee house is a good one 

The cake was awesome 

She liked hers too :-) 

So all good

Next time maybe we'll meet for dinner 

Lol

She usually cancels 

I don't care 

Other than that the day was a good one 

I enjoyed the cakes that Nikki made for me and the office 

The office loved the cakes as well

Thank you for my birthday text 

That is nice

That was very awesome to get one

Love you 

I hope that you are well

I hope that you have fun today 

And I hope that you get to have a good weekend 

I'm going to see Amelia May and Ben on Friday 

I will stay the weekend 

Which is kinda nice 

Should be good 

Ben wants to go see a movie 

No problem 

Not sure what else to do 

Maybe take him to see some cars and stuff 

Going to work now

Love you 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 6-25-14

Good morning 

How are you?

Hope you are having a good summer

It's been nice to get texts from you 

That's awesome,

Very glad that your stuff came 

That's great to know

I'll get you more stuff soon

What do you want?

Just let me know

I miss you so much 

I love you with all my heart

Aunt Sherry said that she texts you Sebastian 

And that she told you his much I love and miss you as well

That's cool

She's a nice person

She's having a hard time right now

But it will get better for her and everyone else 

Yesterday and Monday have been long days at the office 

But that's the way it goes 

Monday I was sick as well 

Didn't like that feeling at all :-(

How are you both 

K do you still gave asthma attacks?

Sebastian are you doing ok buddy 

I want to see your smiling faces and hold you tight

I can't wait for that 

Thank you again for the Father's Day card

Pathway was perfect and I will keep that up on the sideboard all year 

Love you 

Off to work now

I miss you so much 

I love you with all of me 

Daddy 

Today, tomorrow and forever xxx

Hi 6-24-14

Good morning Sebastian and Kaitlin

How are you?

I have just woken up - 545

Yuck

Hate being up this early these days 

What time are you getting up?

Do you still go to bed early Sebastian or a little later now

Kaitlin are you still going to bed late?

I try to get in bed by 1030: asleep by 11

That sometimes works and sometimes doesn't 

Lol

Yesterday I had a terrible feeling all day

Shaky

Like really exhausted and then not well at all 

I walked a little but that's it 

Wish I could have walked more 

I wish I could have felt better 

No matter today is a new day 

I have lost a pound 

So at 155 exact 

I just keep,gaining and losing the same  pounds 

I can't get under 155

I wish I could 

All I see is that I have a fat belly 

Need to get that gone

Hard hard work

Glad that you got the bear

That's cool

I hope that's the one that you wanted 

Kaitlin you didn't ask for anything so I just sent a towel from a very old church that I saw 

That's from 1400 years ago - the church not the towel

I think something like that anyway 

You have to tell me what you want and then I can send it 

Thank you both again for the Father's Day card

That was very cool

I like it very much 

Yes I can't wit to see you again 

And yes i can't wait for a double western bacon cheeseburger 

I wish they had carls jr here

That would make my stay tolerable

Hopefully today I will get a haircut 

It's driving me mad again 

Just in time for my birthday that would be great 

The weather here is odd

Warm but humid as a heck

Last night was yucky to sleep

It's supposed to get colder again 

It's actually supposed to rain

Bummer 

But the car needs a wash too :-)

I love you 

I hope you are having a good summer 

I miss you 

I wish I wish I were there with you 

I wish I could hold you 

Love always and forever 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 6-23-14

Good morning Sebastian and Kaitlin

How are you?

Been cooking by the looks of the Facebook pix

That's cool

Sebastian you said the brownies were great 

What was the other thing

Looked like a steak pie

Looked awesome

Hope it tasted great

Hope you enjoyed making them

I imagine you enjoyed eating them too 

Well done

I saw pictures of the B's at a farm and Legoland (I think)

They look good 

Yesterday I went to a car show in London 

Walked miles and miles 

It was great 

Once I'd done the show I went to a park there

There were so many people

Like wow

It was a beautiful sunny day 

Reminded me of home 

I miss home 

I miss you 

I love you 

I wish I were with you 

I wish we were exploring and having a good time 

I don't know if you see the pictures but at least you see some of them on Facebook

Occasionally this place looks nice 

When I turned on the laptop last night it crashed 

It said fatal error 

It wouldn't turn on at all 

That was worrying for a while 

But eventually it worked and all is good 

It kept asking for the initial media that came with it 

Don't have any of that 

It doesn't have a cd 

Oops

Anyway it's sorted now

Hopefully when I get it to the office today it will be ok 

Praying it is 

Lots of love 

I miss you so much 

I wish I were with you 

I want to hold you 

(((((( HUGS ))))))

It was aunt Deborah's birthday yesterday 

Love always 

Daddy xoxo 

Hi 6-22-14

Good morning Sebastian and Kaitlin

I hope you had a good Saturday and have had some fun

I went to a beach and got burned

But I am ok

I enjoyed walking 

In fact I walked about 18 miles 

I'm still tired Sunday morning 

Today I think I'm off to a car show 

It's in London

Should be a nice fun drive there 

Lol

I hope that you are well

I haven't had much texts from you recently 

So thinking that you likely are having fun

Thank you for saying hi though

That's great

What have you been doing this summer

Are you doing homework everyday or did you do a lot at the start of summer?

I hope you're doing a little everyday just to keep in the rhythm of school

To keep your minds fresh

My roommate and I will next week start a less carb diet

That's cool

I will enjoy that 

NOT

I love bread 

That's going to be hard work

But I walk miles and miles and can't lose the final 5 pounds that I want to lose

Shame 

:-( 

She's the same

But she's losing 50 pounds 

I'm already at the idea weight I just need it lose my body fat at my stomach 

My allergies are playing up today 

That's going to be fun

Not 

At the beach yesterday an older man had a heart attack

We were on the pier 

So I dialled 999 (911 equivalent) and the paramedics talked me through helping him until they arrived that was a good experience - to save his life 

Love you 

Miss you 

Always thinking of you 

As you can see I write you sand messages every time I go to a beach 

Lots of love 

Daddy xoxo 

Hi 6-21-14

Hi Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you?

Hope you are well

Hope you are enjoying the summer 

Hope you are doing stuff

What have you done this week?

Anything fun?

What are your plans for the weekend 

I hope you have some good ones 

Are you playing with Stephanie, Tammy and Benton

Or are they with their other cousins

Aunt Tina texted me to say that they are well

Brian, Britney and Britanya have something to send to me 

Brian said he thinks he screwed up the address 

Oh well

I think it will still get here 

Sherry said that she sent you a letter and something to send to me

That's sweet of her

I wonder whether mom allowed that to happen

Who knows 

I'm not sure 

If you did sent something to me that's cool

If you couldn't that's ok 

I totally understand why 

It's a sunny morning here 

Can't wait to get out and have a day out 

Not real sure where to go today 

But I will go someplace with a beach 

I love the beach

I love to drive and I love to walk on the sand 

Sounds like a great idea to me 

I miss you 

I love you 

I wish I were there with you 

I went to grandma's last night 

They are fine

I fixed the laptop for them 

Soon I think they'll need a new one 

It's very slow and discombobulated 

Nikki is back today 

She's been to Italy 

Love you 

Today tomorrow and forever

Daddy xoxo

Hi 6-20-14

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you both?

Hoe is school vacation

Are you doing stuff

Did mom have Wednesday afternoon off

Like b4

So you could go someplace

Are you ok

I miss you 

I think Brian and the B's are sending me some mail

But I think Brian messed up the address 

It should still be ok

Strange that they want to send me something

But very nice that they do

I will send them a card etc in return

I miss them as well

I miss Stephanie too

She was always so fun

Are you seeing Stephanie , Tammy and Benton over the summer

I hope so

I hope you still get to see and play with your cousins 

That's important 

Yesterday to get from the office to 28 took 85 minutes 

Like wow

That's forever 

It was a hard to get home 

That's two nights in a row that the traffic has been awful 

No matter 

It's the way that it goes

I had chilli last night 

With nachos 

That was delicious 

Like wow delicious 

I loved it

My roommate and I went to dinner across the street from the house 

It was a amazing food 

It always is

This morning something smells on fire 

That's not good

Oh well

Ok I hope you are ok

I hope that you have a good nights sleep

I love you with all my heart 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 6-19-14

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you 

I hope you are well

I hope that you are having a good vacation 

Brian sent me a message yesterday; he was asking how to write the address to England

Said that he wants to mail me something that is from him and the twins

That will be nice

I explained how to do it but it has to be weighed

I am not sure whether other mummy will take them to do that 

I wish 

Again sherry is a crazy person 

She's decided that I am not able to have other friends if I have her as a friend

What the hell 

That's stupid 

But whatever 

I guess that is the price that I have for having a life 

Ridiculous 

I will have to decide soon whether she's going to be worth it or not 

It a a hard decision

I imagine that it will be worth it 

Oh well

We'll see

I went to an old house yesterday 

Built in in 1397 

Wow

It was lovely inside and you could really imagine them living there

The gardens were impressive as well

After that I went for a walk on the river 

I sent you some pictures and a short movie of that 

It was so tranquil there 

It was lovely 

Almost able to forget that strangeness that I have 

Almost able to forget the nastiness of being here and not with you 

Going to get ready for work in a few minutes 

Seems surreal that I will get ready for work when you are getting ready for bed

I miss you both so much

I love you with all my heart

The teddy bear that you asked for has been sent Sebastian and I included something for Kaitlin too

Love you with all my heart 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 6-18-14

Good morning Sebastian and Kaitlin

I hope you are well

I am ok

I guess

I am really struggling this week

Missing  you like crazy

Aunt a Sherry upset me somewhat yesterday 

Saying that I text people too much 

Oh well

Whatever 

She & I will get over it 

I am trying to stay with her so as I can get closer to you 

Last night I almost told her to go away forever 

I know that's over reacting but she really did make me mad 

Irritated that I text Aunt Tina and Other Mummy 

She also gets irritated that people are on Facebook

Whatever 

She'll need to get over it 

I am not going to be constantly walking on egg shells again 

Did that for too long with your mom

I miss you so much it hurts 

I really wish and pray that I could be with you 

Hold you 

Hug you 

Right now I'd just settle for a smile

What are you doing in the day?

No school

Lots of fun

Or are you doing homework

Hope you are enjoying yourselves 

Hope that I get some pictures 

I uploaded some of the walk that I did last night 

It was really beautiful and just 10 minutes from the house

Odd I'd only ever been in that direction once before and it was so muddy that I couldn't pass 

Liked it last night though

Love you 

Today, tomorrow and forever

Daddy xoxo