Hi 11-30-13

Good morning 

How are you both

I hope you are well

I hope you have a good day today 

It was really great to see you and talk to you yesterday 

That made me so happy 

That made the week perfect 

That's what I have thanks for 

:-)

The little sessions on FaceTime or text

That is what makes my life bearable 

I hope you feel the same

Did the old lady tell you that you can't talk to me

Or that you we no longer to use the iPad? iPhone? 

Please let me know

That is important information 

Have a good good day today

I have a patty to go to later 

Joy

I hate these things 

Especially as I will be going alone

Makes me nervous

:-(

It's for the office 

Had I known at the time that Siobhan wouldn't be going then I likely would have bailed out 

No matter 

I'll try to have fun

I will try Guinness and I will be staying the night at the hotel 

Miss you guys 

Hope you have a good day and weekend 

Back to school Monday?

Love always 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 11-29-13

Good morning Sebastian and Kaitlin

Happy Black Friday

I hope you had a good day for Thanksgiving

It's not celebrated here so I was at work

I did come home and text and email you 

Thank you for the pictures 

That was nice that you sent them to grandma 

And then I got to see them too

Thank you

I hope mom made the day special 

Did you have fun in Ma's house

I saw a great picture Uncle Ted took with Ma

She's looking good

Uncle Ted looks good too :-) 

What did you do?

What are you doing today?

Hopefully you will have a good day today too

We we on the road 2 years ago 

Taking the. At to Arizona and the Vegas 

That was a great trip

Oh Brian also texted me some new pictures 

That is cool too

The pictures keep me close

Wish to god that I was there with you 

That I could share things with you 

Nothing could or would make me happier

I am so sorry that things went the way that they went 

It is life and it is a terrible shame that we were split up

I want you to come and see me 

I want to hope you want to come and see me too

I hope soon you will receive your passports 

That would be cool

My concern is sending you back 

How that will affect you 

Perhaps you'll want to leave though 

Who knows 

But I miss you so much 

So very much.

Love you with all my heart 

Daddy xoxo

Thanksgiving 2013

Good morning Sebastian and Kaitlin

So do we have something to be thankful for

Yes

We have one another

We have friends 

We have family

We have food and water on the table

We have lots and lots to be thankful for 

Whilst we may not be together we are still one

We are in one another's hearts and minds 

We are kindred spirits who will never be alone no matter what 

That is what life is really about

Not money 

Not work

Not material objects 

Be thankful that this morning you woke up

That this morning you have a bed to sleep in 

That you have food to eat 

Many others don't

Happy Thanksgiving 

In 2011 we embarked on our last (for now) great journey 

We went to the skywalk and the Vegas

It is still fresh in my mind and I found the pictures that I had uploaded to give me more of a reminder

I love you 

I miss you 

I wish with everything that I am that we could wake with one another today 

If no other day

Today is special to us 

To me

Daddy xoxo

November 27-13

Good morning

Hope you are both well

Hope you are happy

Try to be happy

I know we're apart ... That makes it harder but one day we'll be together

I hope

I live for the day that you and I get to hold one another again 

But I fear it is a day so far away that you'll never want me 

It eats my heat 

It eats my brain

It makes me so sad

Oh well

I will live but the real question is whether I want to

I miss you so much that I can hardly function

Fiona yelled at me she wants me to get on with life 

To try to make the best of it 

I am 

But God it is hard

I can't talk to anyone anymore 

It's ok

I'll keep it inside

Hopefully one day I will get to tell you in person how much this hurts me as well as I know how much it hurt you 

I'm so sorry

With all my heart and my being I am sorry that you are hurting from my forced absence 

I can't think of anything worse for you

We were a happy family and it was taken away from us

Ok so mom and I were not the happiest with one another but you guys and I that was what I woke up for everyday 

Now there's nothing 

I get the occasional text.

I'm depressed 

I might go see a doctor and get some happy pills in 2014

You never know that might just be a good thing 

I love you both

I miss you both

Oh last night I coughed so hard I threw up

Great huh

I remember coughing in Oceanside and getting yelled at for it 

Now I have no one who cares enough to yell at me 

:-( 

Love you so much

Daddy 

xoxo

Hello 11-26-13

Hello 

How was Monday?

I hope that you had a good Monday and a good start to your week off

Are you at the house

Or did you go to Aunt Tina's

Or someplace else?

I hope you had a nice time 

No matter where you are and what you did

It's almost 2 years since we went to Arizona 

Amazing isn't it 

Remember getting a speeding ticket 

Lol

Plus we walked on the glass bridge 

We had a good time 

That was a fun weekend 

I hope you still have  fond memories of me like I do you 

I know everything is very different now 

It's a shame that I am not there to be with you 

But still you have my memories and you are in my heart 

I miss you so much

I love you with all my heart 

I wish I could hold you 

I wish I could see you everyday 

Maybe one day these wishes will come true again 

I certainly hope so

Never loose faith 

Never loose hope

Always be smiling 

I love you 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 11-25-13

Good Monday morning

So I know that you are not in school this week

Thanksgiving 

Awesome

So Monday should be a better day

I miss working from home with you all

I miss taking you to the park

To the beach and so much more 

I wish I could do that 

I wish I was there 

I wish a lot of things were different 

Did you get a report carder?

I'd like to see it 

It's cold here now all the time 

I have to wear a sweater vest to work as well as a shirt 

It's just too cold to be there any other way now

I leave the house  at 645 just in case I have to scrape the ice from the car

Some mornings it is so cold that the doors are frozen

That's just so much fun

Lol

I hope you liked the video that I sent on the weekend 

The driving and the beach one

I think of you both all the time

I miss you so much 

I love you with all my heart

Love always 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 11-24-13

Hi guys

I'm a tad late writing this today 

I was up so early and then fell back asleep

Now I'm back at the house

I hadn't forgotten you 

I just wanted to tell you about the evening 

It was crap

Lol

It was so boring 

I watched Ocean's 12 & 13

I've seen the m both a long time ago but they were just boring 

Oh well

I went to a castle today but couldn't get in so took pictures of the church near it

I also went to the beach

I sent you a video from there 

I hope you like it 

I love the beach 

Not as much as I love you though :-)

Miss you so much 

Love you with all my heart

Wish I were there with you 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 11-23-13

Good morning 

It was good it just text with you 

I hope that you have a nice night at Aunt Tina's

I only use Viber if I don't get you on iMessage 

It's backup

I don't much like viber

Did you know you call call me via iMessage 

Or make a video and send it to me 

Or just video chat?

I miss you 

I miss seeing you both

Holding you 

Playing around with you 

What do you eat these days 

I hope your healthy

I hope you are just not playing games all the times on the computer and you're outside 

Do you think of me?

I think of you all the time 

It gets me through the day to think you're here with me or I am there with you

It was good to text today too :-) 

Sometimes because of the work emails I turn the phone to silent but your texts should get through as they are on a special tone!

I try not to text you knowing you maybe sleeping 

I miss waking up making breakfast and taking you to school 

I miss the normal routine of normal peoples life 

It is that that hurts

I get up and go through the day never knowing whether I will see you again

I love you 

I miss you 

Text anytime 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 11-22-13

Hello

Good morning 

How are you?

I hope all is well

Haven't had a text in a while save a smiley face 

So I hope your doing good

I miss you

Roommate goes to America tomorrow

That's cool for her

I need / want to go home too

Aunt Tina and uncle Steve both said that it is really bad rain there 

Same as here

Only you know it will stop

It might stop in April here 

Lol

I miss you

I love you

I want to be with you

I hope the passports are coming soon

I hope you will get to use them 

I hope you'll tell me that you have them

I might not get notified 

You mean everything to me

I want to have money to take you places and make things better for you 

Alas that has not happened yet 

I am trying to save and send you money and pay bills etc

Life with no credit card is hard

Love always 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 11-21-13

Good morning 

How are you both

I hope your Wednesday went well

Mine was ok

It poured with rain here much like there 

Only it is just 36 degrees here right now

In the house it is more than that 

For a while yesterday it wasn't - :-( 

I am not a fan of the cold 

Hate it actually

But I have to make do

I miss you both

I love you both

Today I have a hard meeting 

I have to explain why the people who work with me are so poor at managing their calls

It's hard because I have only 2 people but enough work for 4

But my boss doesn't see it

Oh well

Maybe this afternoon I'll be out of a job

I'm not sure I care 

Just something else to concern myself with right before Christmas

Hopefully you are well

I am ok

It kills me to not see or hear from you 

That is horrible 

But that is our life now

I hope that I will get to see you soon 

One day soon

I love you 

I miss you 

Daddy xoxo

Hello 11-20-13

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

Daddy woke up with very red eyes

Not good

Hopefully that will go away soon

I think maybe there is an eyelash stuck

Who knows

Don't think it's pink eye

Hope it's not pink eye

Taking a half day today 

Need to get some things done

More than that I need to rest

I don't think I'll go driving today but I'll certainly rest at the room

Did you text Britney and Britanya yesterday for their birthday 

I hope you did

It would be remiss of you not to have done that 

How is school?

Hope all is going well

Can I have a copy of your report?

Did you get one yet 

Can't believe it's almost thanksgiving 

Remember 2 years ago we went to Arizona and Nevada?

That was fun

Way fun

Glad that we got the opportunity to do that

Wish I still had the pictures 

Might ask Brian if he has the video

That would be cool to see again from the hummer

I'm surprised that I don't have those pictures on Shutterfly

Maybe I do and I just haven't seen them!

I'll look later

Miss you both

Love you both

Daddy xoxo 

Hi 11-19-13

Good morning 

How are you both?

I hope all is well

I hope that you remember to text at least Britney and Britanya happy birthday 

I will also 

How is school?

Hopefully all is going well at school

Thank you for you texts 

They are awesome and mean so much 

It is awesome to know that I am not forgotten despite being so removed from your lives 

I want so much to come home 

Alas what I want is immaterial to the USA DOJ 

:-( 

One day maybe 

Yesterday was a very long work day

Wow

15.5 hours 

I haven't done that in a while 

But I had to bring work home 

I had to concentrate and have little interruption 

Also yesterday my friend Jessica (and client) had her baby 

A boy

Healthy and all is well

7.4 pounds 

They will call him Finn

He's adorable

Not as cute as the two of you of course - but still adorable 

Ok off to work 

Talk to you later

Love you 

Miss you 

There is a hole in my heart where I want to be with you so much 

Makes my days ache

Today it is cold 

Tomorrow yet another cold day but they are saying snow too 

Can't wait :-(

Love 

Daddy xoxo

Hello 11-18-13

Good morning

Happy Monday

How are you?

Aunt Tina told me that you stayed at her house on Saturday night

That's great 

I hope that you had fun

I hope you were well behaved

I know that you were to be honest 

You always are

It's great that you still stay with Aunt Tina

You did say that you were with Jennifer

Did you go to aunt Tina afterward

How come?

Did you know that The B's all got awards at school

That is great news

Nhu posted that on FaceBook

I did text them but then I got nothing back

:-(

It is a shame that you all fell out

Wish I could make that right like I used to do

I really miss you guys

Remember how we use to cuddle

I miss that so much 

So very much

I cuddle blue and yellow every night 

I had to puff up nuke he was looking sad 

:-(

Have a good day 

Hopefully school is going well

Love you with all my heart

Miss you so much 

You should get your passports soon 

I think so anyway 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 11-7-13

Good morning 

It was so nice to text with you yesterday 

Awesome

I love it 

I hope soon you'll get more time with me too :-)

I went to the coast yesterday 

That was cool

It was dark when I got there 

I did think of driving to France but too expensive to get there at short notice

Plus way expensive with gas :-)

It's all good though

Maybe in 2014 I will go there?

Not sure

Not sure where I will go of do today 

Maybe another drive 

Lol

I even ate breakfast (but only breakfast yesterday) 

It was an English breakfast

Hash browns

Beans

Fries

Bacon

Sausage

Egg

Tomato

Mushrooms

WOW

It was a lot of food 

I couldn't finish it 

Will go to Starbucks this morning and decide where to go from there 

Have to out gas in the car no matter what 

Love you 

Miss you 

Daddy xoxo

Hello 11-16-13

Good morning 

Happy Saturday 

How are you both 

I hope well

I am ok

Woke up this morning to the freezing cold winter reality that is England 

Yuck

Apparently on Wednesday it is going to snow

Joy 

Not 

Kim said the weather there was cold yesterday 

That sucks for you guys 

Hope it's better today 

I miss you 

I love you 

I really just need a hug

I'm lonely here 

I don't know what to do 

Should I go get a girlfriend but I know I'm leaving 

I'm going to go to Mexico 

I think I have another 18 months here though 

I have to have some $ before I leave 

Speaking if money 

I hope you got some in November from me 

In addition to your birthday money you should have had the usual money to spend 

Mom never said anything or if she did I can't find the text 

But that was right around when you got the new phone 

Love you

Miss you 

Daddy xoxo

Poem for Kaitlin 11-15-13

Daddy’s Little Girl – for Kaitlin

Daddy's little girl paints the world with her magic wand
Daddy's little child breathes new life to the morning time for me
Though we're apart, her thoughts follow me
When I come home, Kaitlin smiles with the dawn
Kaitlin smiles, and she radiates the glow around her halo
When she plays, Kaitlin smiles
On a summer day, Kaitlin smiles
A new day, Kaitlin smiles

Daddy's little girl ties a ribbon around my heart
Daddy's little child waves goodbye to the ocean tide that sweeps me
Though we're apart, she's a part of me

Kaitlin smiles with the dawn
Kaitlin smiles and she radiates the glow around her halo
When she plays, Kaitlin smiles
On a summer day, Kaitlin smiles
A new day, Kaitlin smiles

When I come home, Kaitlin smiles with the dawn
Kaitlin smiles and she radiates the glow around her halo
When she plays, Kaitlin smiles
On a summer day, Kaitlin smiles
A new day, Kaitlin smiles

When the days have gone grey,
Nothing's wrong when Kaitlin smiles

Hello 11-15-13

Good morning 

How are you both 

I hope that all is well

I hope you are sleeping good 

I hope school is ok

I miss you

I know you had a minimum day yesterday 

Today?

I hope so

A minimum on a Friday is like a good break

Thanksgiving soon

I have mailed you cards

I have mailed the money to you as well

Did you get that yet?

Probably you have not been to the mail box

I hope it is there 

You certainly should have gotten it 

If not I am sorry 

Usually mom texts me to tell me 

But nothing this month from mom

How are you both 

Are you feeling ok

The colder weather is coming and know that you don't want to be cold

Although yesterday it was seriously warm right?

Here it was 33 degrees 

And it's not cold yet - so I am told :-( 

Might go for a drive tomorrow - I'm not sure yet 

Have had really horrible dreams all week

Lots of love 

Daddy xoxo 

For Sebastian a Poem 11-13-14

For Sebastian

I sometimes wish you were still small.
Not yet so big and strong and tall....
For when I think of yesterday.
I close my eyes and see you play.
I often miss that little boy.
Who pestered me to buy a toy.
Who filled my days with pure delight.
From early morning  to late at night.
We watch our children change and grow
As seasons come then quickly go.
But God has a perfect plan
To shape a boy into a man.
Today my son I'm proud of you
for all the thoughtful things you do.
I'll love you till my days are done.
And I'm so grateful you're my son

Daddy xoxo

Hello 11-14-13

Good morning 

How are you 

Glad that you like the poem that I sent for you Sebastian

I'll do one for Kaitlin soon

How I school

How is everything 

Are you ok

What are you learning in school?

How are you doing in school?

Did you get any grades yet

I did email the school but never got a response 

:-( 

My job is ok

Manic

But it is ok

I have interviews today (again) for a new person

Hopefully we'll get someone and that will make a difference 

That would be nice anyway 

The pressure of not having enough staff is horrid

The car is great 

She performs so well for being old

Last night though took 2 hours and 21 minutes to go 8 miles 

The traffic was awful :-( 

All good not complaining 

I went to Krispy Kreme but they took too long to serve me so I left

Fiona says I am way too impatient - but later I looked up that one online and they have a terrible reputation 

Lol

Lots of love 

Miss you so much 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 11-13-13

Good mornings

How are you 

Thank you for the text overnight 

That are lovely :)

How was school

Is it good

Do you have lots of friends 

I hope so

I just woke up

Can see that there is ice on the car outside 

Urgh

Yuck

 

I miss you both 

I wish I could see you 

I wish I could hold you 

The last few days have been harder than usual

It will get better 

It always does 

But never think for a second that I am not thinking of you 

Love always 

Daddy xoxo

Hello 11-12-13

Good mornings

How are you both?

Hope you had a good Veterans Day 

Did you go anywhere?

Thank you for texting me 

That is always a great thing to see at night 

Thank you so much

It's been a long time since you asked to be called mini me

That's awesome

I missed calling you that 

I missed having that rapport with you

Work is very busy 

But that's ok I like it that way 

Hopefully today we'll get more calls done and we'll get to clear up the backlog

Who knows 

I try it not worry about that these days 

Pouring rain again

Surprise

I hope you have a good day in school

Miss you 

Love you 

Daddy xoxo

Hello 11-11-13

Good morning 

Happy Veterans Day 

Hope you are both well

Hope that you have plans for today 

I saw your new pictures on Facebook

Did mom at paving stones to the front garden 

Looks nice

I miss 2280

I miss you 

Without you I just wander aimlessly around

It was very cold here last night

At 7pm when I got home there was ice

Yuck

Ice

Soon it is going to snow

Raining again this morning. That means warmer than snow

So bonus to get rain

Wet I can handle 

Wet and cold :-( eww

I went to the beach yesterday 

Awesome place

Found a sandy beach 

It was great 

Walked for hours and hours

Miss it 

I miss Oceanside and Carlsbad 

A lot 

I wish I could come home 

Alas I can't - not yet 

I will one day 

I hope

How are you both?

How is school? 

How is mom?

How is Ma?

I hope all is ok

I hope that you are enjoying life 

I wish I could 

I miss you 

Love always 

Daddy xoxo

Hello 11-10-13

Good morning 

How are you 

Happy Veterans Day

It is also Remembrance Sunday here - same thing as there 

Hope you are having a good weekend 

Where are you?

At home or with aunt Tina?

Whatever I hope you are having fun

I went to the beach last night 

That was fun

To just listen it the waves in the milder storm

I enjoyed it

I loved the drive there of course 

That is always a fun part for me 

Miss being able it drive you 

Being able to see you 

I miss everything about you both 

Not just the little things too  

All of it 

Everything 

The arguments 

The long time you take it poop

The food

The fun

The park with K and B

Picking you up from school

It was such a huge part of my life 

It's not gone

It's just waiting for me again 

I'll be back one day 

I'll be in your hearts forever 

I miss you so much 

Love always 

Daddy xoxo

Hello 11-9-13

Hello

How did your day off go?

Hope you had a fun time

It was great that you texted me 

I really love getting texts from you

How is everything in California

It is ok here 

Finally this morning it has stopped raining 

Wow

Like the first time since last Sunday 

6 days of straight rain

Still could be worse 

Could have been snow / ice

Like in some other parts of the world

I had a Facebook message from Rawia today 

She is doing well 

It was nice to hear from her 

Her kids are great too 

It's Saturday so off for a drive later 

Miss you both so much 

Love always 

Daddy xoxo 

Hi 11-8-13

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you?

Hope you are well

Hope you are enjoying the half days at school

Good to get texts from you Sebastian

That's lovely 

Especially one that says that you love me

That's very nice

And made me feel great 

:-)

Thank you 

It's a rare text that says that these days 

What are you doing after school

Anything exciting 

Tomorrow you have no school 

You going to stay with aunt Tina - hope you have some fun

I miss you both very much

I miss you all

I was telling Fiona how much I miss all the kids 

She doesn't really understand that it is the kids that I miss not the audits mainly 

I had a Starbucks last night on the way home 

It was so lovely :-) 

Hot

Finally something hot

How's the car going?

You still dislike the Murano or gotten used to it now? 

Hope it's ok

How's mom

Is she ok?

Hope so 

She and I do not talk - better that way for us both probably 

I hurt her and she hurt me 

But we're audits and have to get past it 

Hopefully your passports will arrive soon

Not sure whether mom will allow you to travel alone

Or if she even wants you to travel at all

Or whether you want to travel 

But we'll see

Have a great day 

Miss you 

Love you 

Daddy xoxo