Nov 1 2013 - Hello

Good morning 

Hope you are both ok

Hope you both enjoyed trick or treating last night 

Brian said that he did not go 

Bummer 

Did you go with mom

Or Aunt Tina?

I hope that you are ok

I am ok - just 

Still hurting after the car hit me but getting over it 

Ben -Amelia May - Fiona and Nikki all went to dinner with me last night 

That was nice

Fiona and Nikki left me with the kids for a while 

So they were more relaxed 

Amelia May is very quiet 

Oh well

Mom just uploaded some pictures on FaceBook of you 

That's cool

Yeah

You look great 

I'm happy you have has a good time 

That is a good thing 

Really happy for you 

I miss you both 

I live you both 

I wish I were there I remember the last time we all go with Aunt Tina 

Good fun :-)

Hope that school is ok

Hope that everything else is ok

Hopefully we can talk on Saturday 

Love you 

Daddy xoxo 

Hello 10-31-13. Happy halloween

Good morning and Happy a Halloween

Here it is pouring rain

Has been all night :-( 

Oh well.

Yesterday I met up with Amelia May & Ben and Fiona

Fiona and Stewart just divorced 

Their final day together was yesterday 

So they wee in London instead of where they live and I picked up Ben

Took him to sit in the Lamborghini's, the Porsche's and the Bentley's

He was way thrilled

I'd have taken him to American cars but there was not enough time as Fiona wanted him back for dinner

(We were late). - traffic

He had a good time which is nice 

Tonight Fiona and Nikki are going out so I will take Amelia May and Ben to dinner 

Nit sure where to take them but that's fine 

Told them to decide so no arguing in the car when I pick them up tonight after work

I will drop Fiona off with Nikki too

It's my friend in works birthday today 

I got Starbucks to write Happy Birthday Dumbass on the cup!!

We mess around and call one another names like that 

Works out well because it is slightly more fun in the office

Nikki made him some cake for today too

I'll go get it on the way to the office

Ben was very thrilled that you have an iPhone 

:-)

Hope you had a good day today 

Love you 

Daddy xoxo 

10-30-13 Hi

Good morning

How are you both?

How is school?

Are you ok?

What are you learning?

I hope that you are having fun in school

Work is ok

Hectic

I went to Marc & Jo's house last night 

They have two kids 

Harry 3

Jasmine 6

They are cool like you 

Jo made liver and bacon

Tasted good - earthy and salty 

Not sure if you'd like that or not 

It's not something I could eat everyday that is for sure

It's gone very cold here - shivering as I type this to you :-(

I hope that you get to trick or treat this week

I hope that you get to dress up 

Lots of live 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 10-29-13

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you?

I hope you are ok

Daddy is ok

Just 

Yesterday I was in a lot of pain

But that is due to the car hitting me 

Oh well

I will be ok

Just pain

Think more that I had no one to hold me to make me feel better 

Never mind 

I texted Brian yesterday as well

The girls birthday is soon too

I will get you some money today / tomorrow and mail it off

Tomorrow afternoon i am taking care of Ben

That is cool

I will take him to see cars and stuff like that 

I miss you 

I love you 

Always and forever 

Daddy xoxo 

Hi 10-28-13

Good morning 

How are you?

I am ok

I miss you 

I hope that you have had a good weekend

Mine was ok

Well apart from getting hit by a car

But that is ok

As always I survived :-)

It's a hurricane here this morning 

No kidding 

Worst weather since 1987

Wow

I am going to work

Hoping that I will be able to get there 

Amazingly the car alarm did not go off

Odd

I think that occasionally a fly gets inside and that triggers it 

:-(

The other day I left the car unlocked 

Have a good day 

Not sure if you have 1/2 term or not this week

Some kids here do

Love you 

Daddy xoxo

10-28-12 (2) Almost killed today

Hi Sebastian & Kaitlin

I wanted to write this down 

Today I went to Sevenoaks

I was almost killed 

I walked across the street 

I did look but I saw that the cars had a red light 

I did not see the car going straight had a green

I walked

She didn't see me until the last second either 

She hit me with her land rover discovery 

Late model 

Silver

I didn't get the license plate

In the seconds that mattered all I could think of was that I had not said goodbye to you two

I want so much for it it be better for us

To be the way that it once was 

Yet it can't be 

But it will be similar once more again 

The car hit my upper arm - which is very painful right now 

And it also hit my lower leg 

That is not so bad 

My arm worries me 

It is the same place as the last time I was hurt 

Today Sebastian and Kaitlin it was almost God 1 Max 0

Fortunately it turned out the other way 

But what if you had lost me forever today and I you 

No matter if that happens I will watch over you from above or below and keep you safe

I love you both

You are everything to me 

I feel dizzy and sick 

But I know I love you very much 

Daddy xoxo

hello 10-27-13

Good morning 

How are you?

Hope you are well

Hope all is going well for you 

What did you end up,doing yesterday?

Anything exciting?

The time changed here so you are 7 hours behind me now 

Confusing 

Next week 8 hours 

I have sent another card and some $$ in it for your birthday 

Hopefully next week I will get paid and then I can send more money to you again 

If not next week the week after for sure

Yesterday before the big storm I went it the coast and took some pictures 

Loved it :-) 

Got wet but well worth it 

Got a couple of amazing shots too :-) 

The roads wee and are kind of messed up but that's cool

My Lexus can handle them

Hopefully one day I'll have the Hummer

The Lexus doesn't like being parked in the wind

The alarm goes off

So not locking her right now 

Hopefully that will be ok

Miss you so much 

Glad that I can text and Viber you 

We should be able to iMessage soon as well

I think that goes to your email account at gmail

Love you 

Daddy xoxo

Hello 10-26-13

Good morning 

How are you?

Hope all is well

Daddy heard from Aunt Tina that you got am iPhone 5c

That's great

I hope you like it

Can't same I'm thrilled that mom didn't discuss this with me

But that's fine now that I have the number and can contact you 

I miss you and I love you 

I hope you are ok

I hope all is well

I hope you are loving the phone 

I love mine of course 

Hopefully you will have iMessage set up soon 

You can text me on the 424 # anytime that goes to the phone and the iPad

Or viber me - phone only or whatsapp me - phone only 

I think you have the email set up for iMessage so that's cool

Does K have her own?

Love 

Daddy xoxo

Hello Oct 24 2013

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you both?

It was lovely to get a picture of you Kaitlin yesterday at school

That made my day

Shame I did nit get to talk to you

Next time

Anytime you want to talk to me you can FaceTime or call - whatever you want

I did go to the embassy yesterday 

I have mailed you passport forms to the Department of State 

You should get passports in 90 days - roughly 

Please let me know what the passport numbers are 

Thank you 

I miss you and I love you 

While at the embassy I asked about the appeal i placed a while back 

They have rejected the appeal 

That is ok

It just means that I have to reapply to appeal again next year

Sorry I'm stuck in England for another year at least 

I did not think that I had a great deal of chance but at least one tried 

Have a good night 

I'm off to work now 

Love always 

Daddy xoxo 

10-23-13 hello

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you?

How is school?

When do you get a break at school?

Hopefully soon

Here the kids are on a break this week and next 

Lucky them

Work is hectic

But that's ok

I'll live 

I don't mind hard work

I just don't like doing it all

I miss the store 

Do you?

I am going to the US Embassy this morning to get the forms for the passports notarized 

Should be a long boring morning as you're not allowed to have the phone 

Darn it 

Have to be quick this morning 

Talk to you later

Love you 

Miss you 

Daddy xoxo 

Hello 10-22-2013

Hello 

Good morning

How are you both?

I hope all is ok

I hope school is ok

I am still sick

But getting better 

Hopefully tomorrow even better 

Good news tomorrow I go to the Embassy and get the forms re-notarized for you

Then I get to send them in

I get to send them to the DOJ

That is great :-)

I hope that you'll be able to get a passport and visit here or Vietnam or wherever mom wants to take you

Maybe just Mexico and I can stay there and see you 

Having the passport will make things better for you.

I just chilled last night didn't really talk to anyone 

Well Fiona 

But that is what it is 

Fiona is going through a divorce and that means that while I don't always agree with what people say or do I am there for them.

Hmm that line just ran on and on

Lol

I hope that you have a good day in school

How is everything there 

When do you get a break?

I noticed yesterday that the traffic was great so that means the kids here are on vacation as well

Great news 

Quicker to get to work!!

Lol

Work is ok

Work is work

I miss the store and working from home in the latter years

I miss the life we has together

I want to do anything to get that back

I'm working on it 

Lots of love

Always and forever 

Daddy xoxo

Hello 10-21-13

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you both

How was your weekend

I hope you enjoyed it

I was hoping to have had a text or a FaceTime call - shame to not

I never know where you are and that upsets me 

Oh well

I know you are safe 

That is the main thing 

Yesterday I went to this small coastal town 

They had a tornado

Wow

I was in a tornado

I'm amazed

The whole place was a mess

As you can probably guess

It wasn't like a big Kansas tornado

It was a mini one, still worrying for the people there 

I did get some great shots of course with the waves and things 

Saw lots of people on jet ski's - got amazing shots of them with the stunts 

Made me smile 

Then came home 

Then got sick!

Joy

Not 

Wednesday I am meeting at the Embassy to get the form notarized for you again

Hopefully this time it will be easier and make sense

Plus I think I get to send to the forms to the DOJ

That should make it better / quicker for you to get them 

Lots of love

Daddy

Xoxo 

Oct 20-13 Hello

Hi Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you both?

I am ok

Long night

Thunder and lightening here 

Was kind of cool

:-)

My friend has her race this morning 

1/2 marathon in Birmingham

Amazingly next weekend she runs a full marathon in Dublin

Wow

I went to a park yesterday and took some extra pictures of myself and just of the place in general

It was very pretty there 

But better - it was old

The Church was 1000 years old

Wow

I went inside and took some pictures there too 

It was amazing inside

Very cold

But so very quiet 

Wow

Wish you could have experienced that 

I took the pictures for you to see

It was next Oxford

So about 90 minutes from where I sleep

I thought today is Nikki's anniversary 

Turns out it isn't 

It's Wednesday 

Oops

So I went to the trouble of getting her an e-card and e-cake and turns out no good

Darn

Just sent them too 

Oh well that is life 

Nothing I can do 

I figured out why 

The iPhone does not display the data correct

You only get to see part of the reminder not the whole thing 

On the iPad as the real estate is bigger you see the while reminder

I didn't check the iPad

I have issues with the iPhone since the ios7 virus was introduced 

I know lots of people who just want to chuck it in the trash 

I'm not one of those people - but still it is frustrating 

That's for sure 

I use the IPad almost every day and recommend it to anyone

Love it 

The iPhone 5 not all that thrilled with 

Lol

How are you?

What are your plans this weekend?

When is the next school report due?

Will you send me a copy?

Do you still go see Ma?

Is she ok?

Fiona said that she hates me too

Sorry about that 

I hope that she is ok though 

I understand if she hates me 

Everyone does 

Do you?

I hate me

I hate the fact that what happened happened and that I allowed that to happen

But I can't change it 

I wish I could go back

I wish I could fix things 

I am certainly trying 

Hard

I have a meeting this week with the US embassy in London

It is for the notary for your passport and also to see if I can fight an appeal to come home

I know that even if I fight the deportation I don't really have a home anymore 

But at least I'd be on the same time-zone as you 

That would make a difference I hope

I hope that you don't hate me

I hope that you know that I really do love you 

That I really miss you 

That I just want to hold you again 

I love you 

I miss you 

I want to be with you 

Love always 

Daddy xoxo

Hello 10-19-13

Good morning Sebastian and Kaitlin

How are you both?
I hope all is well and all is good
I am ok
It's the weekend and I am not at work
I have done some work but I'm not at the office this morning
I even stayed in bed longer than usual
Which for me is a miracle :-)

It was a very long night
Had Chinese food and a couple of beers (Corona's) and that might have caused the insatiable thirst that I had overnight
Oh well
Up now
Going to jump in the shower soon and go for a Starbucks and a drive
It's nit raining so that's a huge bonus to me :-)

I should leave in the next 30 minutes
Hard to think still in a Saturday I am up and out so early - it's just 8am
But that is life

Are you going to do anything for Halloween?
Will you let Aunt Tina take you out?
Hope so
Hope you get to go trick or treating
It was always fun to do that
Especially with Aunt Tina and Uncle Ted
Did you know Tammy has a Facebook page?
Wow
I'm not sure I want you to have one yet
But I can create one if you want for you both and it will dead-head to me
So anyone says anything then they will know that you are monitored in it
You can let me know

Miss you both
Love you both
Wish I wee there to take you someplace today
Really and truly
That would be awesome

Saw some lovely pictures of the beach in Ca today
Wow
I'll send them to you later

If I take pictures today I'll send those too

Love always
Daddy xoxo 

Hello 10-18-13

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you both

Hope all is well

Hope you have has a good day today 

As you get to go to bed I get up

Cool

Tammy just asked for a friend request on Facebook 

That's cool

I will accept it shortly 

Odd she has one and Stephanie doesn't 

Lol

You should get one too 

Maybe mom will let you 

You have to be careful though who you are friends with 

Especially as people can trace you 

I miss you 

I love you 

I wish I could tuck you in at night and drive you to school

Nothing would make me feel better 

I will contact you teachers and ask for updates on school work too

I never heard back from Nhu or B's for a while 

That's a shame 

Uncle Vince is teaching Brian to drive - did you know that 

I hope I am back in time it do that for you both 

I expect that Aunt Linda will talk to her brother in law Ted soon 

I hope so 

He's an immigration attorney 

I need to make a deal to get back

Tara's trial starts Monday

I suspect that it will be a long one and that she will get off 

I don't see her going to jail 

But I could be wrong

While she played a part in this - she is not responsible - I am 

Love you with all my heart 

Daddy xoxo

Hello 10-17-13

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you both

I hope all is well

I hope school is good

I hope mom is good

Since they signed the new laws it would appear that my embassy meeting next week will take place

Hopefully they have not put the charges up so as I can get the passport applications done for you 

If they have - they have and that will be fine 

If not even better 

It's still $1000

It's all good 

You are worth whatever they say I need to pay 

I texted with Aunt Linda yesterday and she is going to speak with her brother in law who is an immigration attorney - perhaps there is hope,  His name is Ted 

That would be good if there was hope that I could get back and hold you 

I know that I won't be in 2280 but perhaps I'll be able to make something happen 

Off to work now

In the freezing cold

I've woken up quite hungry 

That's a good thing I think 

I didn't eat last night 

Love you 

Miss you 

Hugs forever 

Daddy xoxo

Greetings 10-16-13

Good morning 

How are you both?

Hope you are ok

Hope you are asleep right now 

As I am getting up you should already be asleep

Or very close to going to sleep

Goodnight :-) 

It got cold here 

Like 30 degree last night 

I babysat for Oliver and Annie and wow was it cold 

Nikki's house is so cold

Was so nice to come back to my room 

Heated sheets and the heating on :-) 

I miss you 

I love you 

You know that there isn't a day that goes by that I am not constantly thinking about you 

I want to be with you 

I hope that I will be with you soon 

I can't wait to hold you again 

Next Wednesday I will be going to the US Embassy in London to get the passport form notarized again and we'll try to get you the passport applications done 

That should make life better for you 

If you could come here that would be great 

Or if mom wants you to go to Vietnam and I can meet you there

Or you could go to Mexico with Aunt Tina etc 

Whatever 

It would be great for you to go and great for me to be able to see you 

Love always 

Every single day 

Daddy 

Xoxo

Hello 10-15-13

Good morning 

Happy Tuesday

Monday's done !!  yeah

Yesterday was ok at the office

Not too hectic for a change 

That means usually that today will be a nightmare

But we'll see 

I'll cope

I'm good at that 

Miss you 

It's hard to wake up knowing that yet again I won't see you 

The days are long

Yesterday I went to work in the dark and came home in the dark

Reminds me of when I was working with ace parking 

I used to leave 2280 at about 5am but but not come home sometimes until 8pm

It was a long day and always dark

But I was in California 

That mattered 

Soon once again I will be in California

I saw a forum on people who got out of jail on their first day and what they did

Amazingly I was true to form and wanted food

But as with others I simply couldn't eat the food outside of jail 

It was too rich too tasty and it made my stomach upset 

Sad

Hopefully school is going well

Hopefully soon you'll email me / text me 

Love you 

Miss you 

Daddy xoxo  

Hi 10-14-13

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you both?

I hope you had a good weekend

Mine was ok

The weather was awful yesterday so I just had a short drive and then came back to my room

Watched a couple of movies 

Amazing how tired one can get doing nothing

Very amazing

Aunt Ann texted me so I found out that Derek is a handful and Ethan is awesome

Good to talk to Ann

Do you see them at all?

I hope you did some fun stuff

How is school

How is home

How is everything 

I wish with all my heart that we were together again

I love you 

I miss you 

Daddy xoxo 

Max Gascoine 

0744 791 2021

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Hi 10-13-13

Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin

This is the 1st time in a while I'm writing to you on the computer and not the ipad
It looks way different!
LOL

How are you both
How is school
How is the weekend
What are you doing
Questions questions, questions - right?
Same ones pretty much every day
Sorry

You know that I love and miss you
I always will
You are part of me, I am part of you
I am so sad, so destroyed by everything that has happened I can't bear to be away from you yet I have no choice
None at all

I went to Dover yesterday, that was nice!
A long drive there for some reason and a very short drive back
Odd

I fought with Grandma in the morning and she kind of upset my whole day
Felt off balance!
Sherry is fighting with me too :)
Love it!  I guess

Sorry that I am not there to help you with homework, to show you places to drive around etc
I wish I were

I love you so very much
I miss you with all my heart

Daddy xxx

Hello 10-12-13

Good morning 

Glad that you got your birthday present 

I will send a card and the rest of it soon - hopefully to show up nearer your birthday 

In the past boxes have taken 2 weeks to get to you 

Thought I'd play it safe and get that to you sooner 

Too soon 

Oops

Glad that you like the cars and hope you like the lunch box 

I got the cars at the car show I went to 

I always think about you when I am at these 

I miss you both 

I love you both 

I think Aunt Sherry has finally gone fully insane

She's talking all crazy and stuff 

But that is a problem I don't need to share with you 

The storm last night was amazing 

Wow

Thought the building would float away

There was so much rain

Lol

I was sick yesterday 

Very sharp shooting pains in my kidney 

The left side 

Made me almost cry 

Feeling better a little this morning 

Shame that it happens on the weekend 

Not that I'd take a sick day anyway 

I didn't get it okay badminton this week

The court wasn't available 

But that is ok we'll try again next week

Hopefully it will be booked then too :-) 

But Marc at work wants to play so I will do my best 

I stayed in last night ate pizza and watched TV 

I did this with my roommate 

She's nice enough to do that with no question. 

Plus she lives to eat!!

I went it bed early

Lol

Had to 

Couldn't stay awake more

Annie is sick and she threw up at the doctor office - that's what Nikki said

Oops 

But if your going to puke no better place than there right?

I miss you both so much 

I love you with all my heart

I want to come home 

I want that more than anything else 

Daddy xoxo

Hello 10-11-13

Good morning 

How are you both?

You ok?

I hope so

How is school? 

Is it good

Are you learning lots and lots?

Hopefully it is going great 

Aunt Tina and I texted yesterday 

She's ok

That's good

Next time you are there staying the night call me or FaceTime with me 

I miss you 

I think of you all the time 

I can't wait to be with you 

It is all that makes me get up every day

The prospect of seeing you and being with you again

Steve (who I was in the immigration place with) went to see a judge yesterday and the judge allowed him to remain there in America

That is great for him

I am very happy for him

Maybe our turn will come to be happy again 

I'm sorry that I am not there with you 

I didn't give you up or walk away I was forced to go

I'd give anything to get back there 

To be with you 

To hold you one last time 

Lots of love 

Daddy xoxo

Hello 10-10-13

Good morning 

How are you both?

Hope you are well

Hope that you are just going to sleep as I am just getting up

Weird how that works 

Wish the world was on the same time zone

That would be better

Well for us!

I miss you both

I love you both 

I wish I were there with you 

It just turned cold today 

(Well last night)

Wow

Going to need to get that coat out again soon

Darn it :-( 

I went hiking yesterday afternoon

That was cool

Wow those hills were hard work

Quite out of breath when I got to the top

:-( 

It's ok though I'll do more and more

Did you upgrade then iPhone and iPad to the new system 

I did for mine

The new system is very fast but it likes to auto correct for you even more than the old system 

What a pain to have to go back over several words

Mine also wants to speak English not American

Lol

Miss you both so much

Want to be with you 

Want to hold you 

I love you 

Daddy xxx