Hi 9-1-17

Hi

Wow

September already

Wow

Only 9:5 months until you are here again

Wow

That’s cool

It seems so far but yet is so close

How are you?

Are you better.i hope so

I hope that you had a good day yesterday and School was ok

I hope you have a good sleep

I slept

Which is very nice

I hope I’ll sleep again tonight and I’d like to be up at decent time tomorrow 

I need it 

No car

Life

The part is on the way from Germany 

I don’t expect that it will get here before Monday now

Oh well 

I may go to London for a walk instead of elsewhere

Just catch a train 

Make life simple 

Alex is in court today 

Hopefully he’ll do well

I miss you

I love you

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-31-17

Hi

How are you?

Are you both better

I hope so

3 days off school, that’s not good 

But I understand as you are sick

I’m not feeling so good this morning either

Yuck

Life

Had to give the Benz back yesterday

Then it rained when I came home

So that was a fun walk

At least not raining this morning 

That makes life easier

Don’t care about getting wet in the evening

Don’t want to sit in wet clothes all day in the office

It’s gone cold here as well

Wow

Like only 60 if that as the high 

It’s freezing this morning 

Had to have the heat on

Yuck 

Life 

I miss you

I wish I were there with you

I wish I were able to hold you again

No news on the truck yet

Probably part in on Friday 

I love you

With all my heart and soul 

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-30-17

Hi

Almost the end of August

Wow

Only 9 more months and you’ll be here

Only 4 months and it’s New Year’s Eve

Wow

Time goes fast

How are you feeling

Sebastian are you 💯% now

I hope so

I hope you are both ok and have a good nights sleep

Sleep is your best line of defense for getting sick

I put on a few extra pounds last week

Now I have managed to get rid of them

I am 173:2 again 

That’s pretty good

I want to be 165 but that is one heck of a goal

I’ll try

The truck is sick

I won’t  have it back for the rest of the week

I have to give the loaner car back today as well

Oh well

It’s life right 

It’s what happens

The actuator on the turbo died so $1,500 to replace it

That’s not easy to find 

In fact no idea how to find it but I’ll try 

Credit cards I guess will have to be my friend 

I miss you

I love you

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-29-17

Hi

I hope you are feeling better

I am ok

Hopefully you didn’t have an asthma attack

Was other mummy happy to see you?

Hope so

I expect she was thrilled

Did she take care of you?

It was a day off Yesterday

Nice

Later summer bank holiday

Yummy day

I just walked around 

Did 9+ miles 

Lovely

Enjoyed it all 

Hopefully today I’ll have the truck back and able to enjoy driving again

Hopefully

Alex said the check engine light has come on just as he was driving back

Great

Not 

He can see what’s wrong today I hope 

With luck nothing major

I miss you

I love you

I still say goodnight out loud to you (and Sabrina)

I have some one who wants to leave their husband for me

She’s wonderful but I don’t know if she can / will leave him

If she does great if she doesn’t I can’t wait around forever 

Love you

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-28-17

Hi

How are you?

Hope K feels better after a good nights sleep

Hope she gets a good nights sleep

I was thinking about you and the funeral and if you are ok

I hope you dealt with it well

I hope you know how much I’d liked to have been there with you

Nothing would have been better 

I saw the devastation in Texas with the hurricane 

That’s where Sherry is 

She’s ok

As far as I know

The house is fine as well

That’s good

I don’t wish her any harm

I miss you so much

I wish I could hold you

I wish I could have been there for you 

Maybe one day 

I love you

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-27-17

Hi

How are you?

How was Saturday?

Was the funeral ok

Everyone go?

I hope no drama there

I wish I could have gone and been there for you

That would have been awesome 

Sorry that I wasn’t 

Yesterday I went to a fate with Laura

It was nice

Warm but nice

I ate a chocolate bar and felt really sick the rest of the day

Yuck

Life

But I got some really good shots of a few old cars

Was lovely 

Enjoyed it 

Been posting on Instagram a bit

I hope you like them

All positive affirmations for you

Going to meet Madelaine for coffee this morning

Her son was taken away by his dad and she was feeling low

So I said I’d meet her for coffee

Seeing Keila before hand

Haven’t seen Sabrina yet (in 10 days) that’s life right

Lol

I don’t care

Just want to have a “date” for the summer bbq at Eamonn’s and possibly a date for the Christmas party if I attend this year 

I wish you were here with me

I wish I was able to be there for you when you need me

Speak today hopefully

I miss you

I love you

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-26-17

Hi

How are you both

Hope you are ok

Hope you’ve had a good week at school

I know personal life was not good with Ma’s death

I hope the funeral is not too traumatic for you 

I’ve had a Good Friday and a pretty ok Saturday so far

Going to go see Laura shortly 

That will be nice

Alex has the truck

So I have a baby Benz 

Hmm

It’s horrible to drive but that’s better than nothing

Makes me really appreciate the truck more 

Lol

No bumps in the truck

The Benz is like a go kart 😎

I met up with Keila for a coffee this morning 

I saw grandma and granddad earlier

Took grandma some flowers as she’d just returned from hospital 

She had a cataract done 

2nd one so no more now

But they are worried about her heart 

She’ll have to have a heart monitor again 

It stops when she goes to sleep sometimes 

Ouch

I miss you

I love you 

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-25-17

Hello

How are you?

Are you coping ok with Ma’s death?

I hope so

You can always call / text me if you need to

Hope that the B’s are ok ass well

How is the ride with Tina, and the T’s

Are you doing ok with that?

I hope so

Don’t take anything that they say to heart

It is not worth it

You are both amazing and strong individuals and you deserve respect

Sometimes people don’t see what is right in front of them

Ok?

How is school?

You doing alright there?

Teachers ok? Enjoyable?

I hope so

I hope that you excel at school again

Show them that you are brainy as well as mature ☺

Is mom ok?

I know that this must be a tough time for her

I miss you

I love you

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-24-17

Hi Sebastian & Kaitlin

How are you?

I hope you had a good day at school and have a great sleep

I miss you

I didn’t sleep much at all on Tuesday night

So made up for it last night

Have had some coffee today though

But still feel sleepy!

LOL

I am still playing the “game” with Sabrina

Dominic her son said that she should date me

He showed me all kinds of things on the PC ☺

Good animator

Anyway, so far no date

Hmm

Not used to asking and not getting one! 

A new experience

I have had dinner with Keila a few times

She’s nice too, and she is Sabrina’s friend

So I find out things ☺

I wish the two of you were here

I need you

I hate the fact that you are far away from me

I love you

With all my heart and soul

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-22-17

Hi

How are you

Hope you are well

Hope you had a great day at school

Work was work

After work was good 

Had a fabulous evening

Hung out with a friend

I’m tired this morning though

Need some coffee

Overnight got sick

Bad stomach again

I exploded

Lol

Life

I didn’t  text Sabrina during the day

She texted me at night asking if I were ok

She missed me 

Lol

Good 

I did text her back of course

Told her the truth

That I was kinda sad and didn’t want to be pushy

She didn’t reply

I don’t care

If it will something great

If not then that’s the way the cards play out

I miss you

I love you

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

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Ps

There is a very strong attraction to Sabrina from me, I have no idea if she shares it

I hope she does 

Hi 8-21-17

Hi

Nice to see and speak to you Sunday

As always

Did you find your lock Kaitlin

Or did you get a new one from other mummy?

I hope you are ok now 

My Sunday was a good one 

Shame I didn’t get to see Sabrina

But she will wait 

And if not then she’s not the one

Wish she was tonight

She’s too cute 

Lol

Anyway whatever

I hung out with  a friend 

It was nice

It was fun

I hope you are ok

I am so tired waking up again

Could be that it’s dark now 

Soon it will be dark when I go home and when I come back

Can’t wait

Yuck

Life

Alex is taking the Q on Friday

That’s fine

I’ll take our stuff out on Wednesday 

Only right 

It’s ok

It’s life 

I hope I’ll have a ride and if not so be it

I can take a train I guess 

Wish it were different as it’s a 3 day bank holiday weekend 

I miss you

I love you

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-20-17

Hi

Hope you get some sleep

Did mom answer you Kaitlin

She emailed me and said that’s she’s made arrangements for Tina do get you

Why is she upset with Other Mummy again

I thought you were all ok now?

Sorry that you are not

Glad that you got home on Friday 

But disappointed that you chose to ask a stranger for assistance 

Next time return to school and call other mummy / Brian or / Tina please

It’s only because we all care about you so much 

We would never want anything bad to happen

I am debating going out for breakfast

Maybe Keila would like to join me 

I invited her

Who knows 

Anyway if not I’ll go alone

McDonalds sounds good right

I walked 11 plus miles yesterday 

Which is amazing 

I scuffed the wheels on the truck 

So I had to paint them yesterday 

Oops

Got paint on me of course 

Lol

Always the way 

I hope you have a good day 

I am hoping I’ll get to go out with Sabrina 

Maybe the beach 

Maybe lunch

Whatever 

 It would be nice for sure

I hope that ok with you two 

Sabrina has two boys 

I like her 

I hope you will too if she’s around when you get here 

Alex said I have to give the truck back in March

Hmm

Not sure on that 

I miss you

I love you 

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-19-17

Hi

How are you feeling

Is your leg ok

I hope so 

How was school

How are the dogs

Hope all are ok

I’m listening to some Taylor Swift this morning 

Just got out of bed 

Going for a walk 

Keeping it local today 

Would have gone for a big drive 

But too tired 

I don’t want to fall asleep in the truck

Next weekend Alex will have the truck

Going to be kinda weird 

Hmm

Oh well

It’s life right

Hoping that I’ll see Sabrina tomorrow and take her to the beach

I hope you are ok with that 

She’s beautiful and why not enjoy a day with a beautiful woman

I wish you were here with me

All I want is my family 

I won’t stop wishing and hoping

Miss you

Love you 

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-18-17

Hi

How are you?

Hope the ankle is better when you wake up

Bummer you fell

Rushing? Or something else

No one pushed you right?

Did anyone help you 

I hope so

I hope you are better soon

How is the dog

What’s his name?

I hope you are both loving the dog

Kaitlin how was school for you

Is it ok

Are you with friends

Are you happy 

I hope so Princess

Had a good day yesterday tbh

It was nice

Just thinking about my date

So I was happy

Work was kinda wow

Got lumbered with several projects 

All due at once and all due immediately

I miss you so much

I wish I was there 

I wish I could take you to school and pick you up

I miss being in your day to day lives

We have lives and we must go on but it is such hard work

I love you

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-17-17

Hi

How are you?

How was school

Was it exciting

Seeing new friends

Meeting new people

Seeing the old friends 

I hope you had a great time

I hope it will be a good place for you

Bet Ms Trunnell misses you Kaitlin

I sure do 

Daddy had a good day

I met with Sabrina and her boys

Keila also had lunch with us

Sabrina is adorable

Wow

She’s nice, calm beautiful 

I like her

I like the little people too 

They were cool 

I hope I’ll get to see Sabrina again (maybe this weekend) 

Who knows

I told Keila that I like Sabrina 

It’s good to have friends and they all bring something to your life 

I miss you so much

I love you with all my heart ❤️ 

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

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Ps

The wind was fierce last night kept me up 

Hi 8-16-17

Hi

Yesterday came and went as they all do

Today is a new day

New School for Kaitlin, new grade for Sebastian

Wow

Exciting times 

Awesome times 

Daddy has a new thing today as well

I’ll have a date later 

It’s a gathering date

Sabrina and I will take Keila to either celebrate or commiserate passing / failing her drivers test

I managed to convince Sabrina this is a good idea

Plus it of course means I get to be with her in person 

We had a hard Sunday - she was mad at her ex

But we had a brilliant Tuesday she was bubbly and alive 

So let’s hope that we can continue this 

Object of the day - smile 

Enjoy life have fun live for the moment not the past 

The moment and the future is bright

I gave several months until I see you again, it’s a guarantee not a wish

I can count down with you 

I can’t wait

If in the meantime I have a girlfriend it will be great and if not well that’s life right?

How is mom?

How are school plans coming 

Are you excited

Are you nervous

I know K that you don’t want to go, S you didn’t answer but I think you do

I love you both

Always have and always will

You are my light my reason to continue each and every day

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-15-17

Hi

How are you?

School tomorrow

That’s gone quick

Wow

I hope you had fun yesterday

I hope you have fun today

I had lamb last night

It was so good

Wow

Yummy

Keila cooked it and invited me 

How cool

Very enjoyable 

Finally Sabrina texted me back

She’s ok

She was down and just felt like her boat was sinking

I understand how she feels truly 

After all I feel that way too 

There’s something special about her

I can’t identify it yet

But I feel something 

My heart feels it 

Maybe she’s going to be at the least a very long term friend 

I certainly hope so

Hopefully we’ll have coffee soon 

I certainly enjoy her texts and I enjoy the thought of her 

Hmmm 

Enjoy life right? Nothing can destroy me 

It’s 5 years today since I was exiled to the uk

It’s been a long uphill struggle and it’s been massively expensive 

I’ve made some terrible mistakes on the way 

Sherry being the biggest one of them 

Hopefully I’ll be able to make the decisions and move forward

I’ll never stop trying to come home to you both 

Ever 

I miss you so much

I miss the noise

The laugher 

I even miss the snoring 

I love you 

With all my heart

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-14-17

Hi

How are you?

Hope you are well

Hope you had a good day yesterday 

Did you end up with Leanne and Kenton

Or with other mummy?

I hope everyone was happy 

I went for a walk

10 miles

I went to Kingston and Hampton Court and back

Took some lovely pictures 

I took one for Sabrina (all many) but one flower one which was beautiful

As is she 

Weirdly she didn’t speak to me all day from 0830

I think but I’m not sure that she was jealous 

Weird

Didn’t even get a goodnight text

Oddly she also didn’t speak to Keila either 

Maybe she just had a very bad day 

But it does seem so strange right 

Anyway 

I texted her and said goodnight because honestly I like her 

There is something in my heart and my mind that says she’s special 

Hope you sleep good

I didn’t do too badly 

Some awesome farts - when I pushed the covers back this morning I almost chocked 

Lol

I miss you 

I love you 

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-13-17

Hi

How are you?

Hope all is well

Did you have a good Saturday

What did you do

Brian texted me

That was nice

Always good to hear from Brian

He’s good

Says that your good to

Awesome

I went to Cambridge yesterday 

It was a lovely place

Wow

Such beauty 

I loved it

Worth the two hour drive for sure

I got lost on the way back

Ended up 20 miles in the wrong direction

Oops

Extra 45 minutes to the journey

I walked 10 miles as well

So that’s good 

Today meeting up with people to walk in the park

Should be nice 

I texted Sabrina

She is worried that she has nothing to offer 

I reminded her a smile is all that one needs and that receiving her texts made me feel great 

She said the same 

So that’s good

We are kinda on the same page 😎

Maybe next week we’ll have a “date” where we actually meet in person

If not it will wait

There’s no issue in waiting 

I miss you

I love you

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-12-17

Hello

How are you?

Hope all is well

Hope you had fun with other mummy today 

Brian texted me this morning was nice to hear from him

Happy

He’s happy to

That’s great

What did you do yesterday?

I hope you enjoyed it 

Work was ok

Boring 4pm meeting but it’s life

I think from January I’ll stop the 1/2 day Wednesday so I’ll have more time off with you when you are here 

Maybe that could be the way to go?

We’ll see ok

I’m going to Cambridge shortly

Wish I were going to see Sabrina but maybe soon

She’s very pretty

And she’s special

I can’t tell you how I know this I just know

I get a feeling 

Is that normal who knows 

But I enjoy the feeling 

Maybe she will be something in my future and yours too of course

She had two boys 

They will be fun 

But remember nothing will ever change my love for you 

Ever 

You are both 💯 percent of what matters to me

But I know you don’t want me to grow old alone forever 

I miss you

I love you 

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-11-17

Hi

How are you?

Hope all is well

What did you do today?

Hope you had fun 

Work was ok

Just

I had stuff to do no motivation though

Still have stuff today as well

But I think I should have more motivation today

Have a 4pm meeting every Friday now

Kinda sad time to do it but life

Lol

I changed the iPad to IOS 11 last night

It’s nice

A nicer feel and look for sure

It’s a beta release so don’t do it yet

As they will likely find lots of things wrong with it

But still cool 

Aunt Nikki says hi

I miss you

I love you

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

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Ps

Sabrina is someone I am starting to care for a lot

I hope that I can make something of that with her 

Even if I can’t that’s ok she will always be a friend 

PPS

Sherry found that the Gascoine name originated in 1240

That’s cool - 800 years old and some but I did think we were in the doomsday book (1065)

Hi 8-10-17

Hi

How are you?

How is everything?

What did you do yesterday

I hope you had a good day with mom

Where did you go

Is the dog getting more friendly with you 

Or just one of you?

I hope so

Is mom allowing you to get one of your own?

I hope so too

Have you seen one that you can get?

How much?

I hope everything is ok

Finally last night at 3am I managed to go to the restroom

1st time in days 

 It the I am up at 3, again at 4 and 5

So that was a fun night

Sabrina is having a hard time and living in a shelter with the boys

I said if she needs to escape the shelter she can come stay at 66

I said it because it is the right thing to do and no one should have to live the way they are 

I also hope that if either of you are in a similar situation someone would step up and help

Pay it forward kinda thing 😎

It also helps she's cute 😎😎

Lol

I miss you

I miss the noise 

I miss coming home and you being here

I miss the park and the pond and the fox 🦊 

I wish you were still here 

I've lost interest in work, life, everything 

10 months or so is a very long time to wait again

Love you

Always have and always will

Daddy xoxo

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Hi 8-9-17

Hello

How are you?

Kaitlin are you feeling better after Sebastian tried to kick you out of his room

You looked so sad

He just wants a little privacy 

You just want to be with him

He still wants to be with you.

It's just a new concept for him 

It will be ok 

I promise 

What did the two of you do in the end

You said you were going to play some fishing game

Did you get more than pants?

Hope so

I had an ok day

It was so busy 

I was exhausted

Lots of calls and people 

Also I made Paul mad

That's not good 

I'll make sure he's ok today

I will also tell him when you come next year you'll want to play more

Cool

He'll like that 

You could also stay as you'll be a lot older too 😎

Tanya would like that for sure 

She and you could take him for a Girlie day and make him just chill with you

Lol

He's stopping smoking and going to vape now 

Which is a great bonus for him and her and his health 

I will try to see Nikki Friday 

Should be nice as I haven't seen them in a while 

I'll get to see Daisy as well

Laura never said when I could come and see Temba

But I will drop by soon

I like Temba so much 

I live Laura's house too 😎

I miss you 

I love you

With all my heart and soul 

Always have and always will 

Daddy xoxo

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Wish you were here with its so quiet 

It's so sad when I come in and there's just empty everything 

Hope mom is ok