April 1st 2014 - hello

Good morning 

Happy April Fools Day.

Hope you are well

I miss you and I love you 

With all my heart 

Good it hear from you last night Kaitlin

I'll call you Bubbles and Princess :-) 

Did you enjoy the beach

Who'd you go with?

Which beach?

Was it warm

Amazingly here they consider 65 to be warm

We'd have a coat on :-(

I'm getting used to it as I don't need a scarf at the moment 

But I miss the nice weather 

I miss you more

Yesterday was a quite manic day at the office 

I did have a new starter

That's good

Next Monday I have a new starter as well

Which is awesome too :-) 

I don't really like my job but that's the way that it goes 

I haven't heard from Bill on going to Mexico

So I assume that is a now

I haven't heard from John in a while 

So going to assume that he's ok but flat out with the lawsuits 

I have heard that Tara goes to court on 6/2

Mary Ann emailed that information and yelled at me for not doing more 

Oh well

That's not really my issue to be honest 

It's theirs now 

I'm sure that in time Mary Ann will realize that T isn't what she says 

But that's not my decision or my right to it show 

I miss California 

I miss the life 

I miss the people 

I miss your cousins 

I miss Aunt Tina, Uncle Ted and Other Mummy so much 

I know that even when I come back they will not be around me 

That's sad

But it is the life that has to be now

I don't honestly know if I will ever be able to come home 

That scares me

It makes my heart hurt

The only reason to get up each day is your love

I love you 

Always and forever

Daddy xoxo

Hi 3-31-14

Good morning 

Thank you for the pictures and the video

That is very nice

Loved seeing you all play at Grandma's house

That is always great 

Now is Ma?

Hope she's well

Seems as if you are seeing Shyla a lot

Is she good?

How is her sister - she's looking big now too

That's great (Tina right?)

Hope that you enjoyed sealife 

Hope that you enjoyed the Lego as well

It certainly looks like you enjoyed both 

Yes the picture of the two of you with a balloon in the back yard is one of my favorites

I miss you so much 

I love you with all my heart

Yesterday we went it Cadbury World

That is near where Ben and Millie live

It was quite entertaining and informative as to how chocolate is made

We saw them make it by hand

Decorate it by hand and then we saw the machines do it

That was all awesome 

They even had this little train ride thing for a few minutes telling you the history of the chocolate bean and how people came to eat it here 

It was interesting 

You'd like it 

We also scored chocolate and I bought grand Ma and Nikki some extra on the way out 

None for me 

I don't really like it 

I also got so,e stuff for you both too 

I will mail it soon 

I know you got some Cadbury stuff when I went to the store there before 

This time you get more :-) 

I am growing a goatee on my chin

Not sure why 

But in any case I think it looks ok

But highlights the grey 

So it might just get shaved at the end of the week

I haven't decided yet 

Staying with Fiona and the kids is good 

Makes me feel like a family again

Ben is awesome like you Sebastian and Millie is like a Princess but doesn't pull it off as well as you do Kaitlin 

You're both better :-) 

Love you 

(Going to work now)

Times changed here this weekend too 

Back to 8 hour difference now 

I miss you so much 

I love you with all my heart 

Daddy 

xoxo 

Hi 3-30-14

Good mor omg 

How are you?

Hope you had a great Saturday

I did

I took Ben to look at American cars, the Jeeps $80,000 here new for a car that costs $30,000 at home 

Then on the way back we saw Aston Martin's and Maserati's and a Range Rover

The Range Rover was very disappointing inside 

The others wee all lovely

We're going to see how chocolate is made later today 

Cadbury world

No idea if I can take pictures in there

But if I can I will

:-)

I will certainly get you some chocolate 

Our clocks changed last night so back be being 8 hours ahead of you 

I am growing a goatee for me face.

Not sure whether I like it yet

I hope so

Good news is that I can just shave it off if I need to 

Lol

Anyway the office will give me crap about it 

So will Siobhan

But I kind of like it and if you like it then it is that which matters to me 

Do you care that my hair is grey?

I hope not 

Anyway time for me to get to. Cadbury world

I love you 

I miss you 

I wish I were taking you there with me 

Love always 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 3-29-14

Hi

How are you both?

It was good to FaceTime with you yesterday 

That was lovely 

Funny ton only see Sebastian laying on the bed with the computer 

Shame you didn't speak much buddy

But Kaitlin it was and always is lovely to see you 

I miss you so much 

I know mom says that she will drop you off and leave you 

But she does not mean that will leave you there really 

I know it feels bad 

I know you feel bad

But it is not real

I won't let her do that 

I promise

If she does just don't get out of the car

Cry and promise to be good 

It's not right 

That's abuse in my mind

But others see as they wish and do what they feel 

Just be calm and strong and you will be ok

Of course try to be good too 

I know it is hard baby

It is hard for me to watch and stand by 

But there is nothing that I can do darling from here 

I want to be there so badly 

Every fiber of my being needs to be there 

But the government won't let me come home 

Maybe never 

I have to try in August and I will try 

But I don't expect much luck 

Never give up and never surrender - ok

Remember that daddy loves you very much 

I will always love you 

I will always be here for you 

I will always protect you as best as I can from here or when I am home from there 

Speaking of home

You know that mom will not let me back in the house at 2280 right?

It's her house 

Not mine

I'll need to live someplace else 

But that doesn't matter as I will be close to you both 

I miss you so much 

Both of you 

You mean everything to me 

Going to go to Birmingham this morning 

That's like 120 miles from here 

Seeing Ben and Amelia May his weekend 

Cars and chocolate 

Lol

Love always 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 3-28-14

Good mornings

How are you?

I'm glad that you enjoyed Legoland

Diana (from Yum Yum donuts) was the with her husband yesterday too

She said she'd look out for you 

Nice that she remembers you 

I miss you 

Wish I were there with you 

Glad that your vacation is going well

That is good

My week is ok

Work was hectic this week but it's Friday and that's what matters anyway 

Lol

I am going to see a end and Millie this weekend 

So that is something to look forward to

I really really miss you 

I wish I could hold you 

I hope that everyday you feel the energy that I send 

Love you with all my heart 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 3-27-14

Good morning 

It is so nice to get a text before you go Ito bed

Thank you Kaitlin

It means so much to me

Especially now

How are you both?

How is the vacation 

I hope all is well

I hope you are enjoying you week off school

Did you get homework that you had to do

Hope not

Are you playing with the B's or the T's?

I hope so

Hope that whatever you are doing is great 

I miss you so much

I love you with you all my heart 

You mean everything to me

Not a second of any day goes by where I don't think of you 

Where I don't think of holding you or seeing you 

You are my life 

Without you there is nothing 

I miss you 

I love you 

I'm off to work now

Not much to tell you

 

Yesterday I went to a place called box hill 

That was nice 

I walked around a while 

But the rain came 

Bummer 

I did get some good shots of the stepping stones across the lake 

That was cool

I almost fell in

Kind of lost my balance 

But it's all good 

I didn't fall and I am ok

I did a little hiking and then came back to my room

I was trying to watch Netflix but the USA one is not working

So strange 

The account is closed I think

Or the password changed 

Oh well never mind

It's life 

I will see whether I can get a log in via someone else

Lol

I miss you 

I love you 

With all my heart 

Daddy xoxo

March 26 2014 - hello

Hi Sebastian and Kaitlin

How are you?

How is the vacation going?

You ok?

I hope you have had fun so far

I wish I was able to take you to the beach or wherever

That would be cool

I miss that 

I wish that I could hold you 

I miss that more

Yesterday I fought with Aunt Sherry

That was fun

In the end she apologized 

It was a good afternoon

Lol

She thinks that she can railroad me into doing things her way all the time

Fiona too

Oh well

They are just people and we all have bad days 

Hopefully more good than bad

I am going to see Ben and Amelia May this weekend

Hope you don't mind that i do that 

We are going to go to Cadbury world

Should be fun

Lots of chocolate :-)

I'll only get a little 

I really miss you 

Two years ago this week we weren't to Palm Springs 

Remember the place that we drove through the puddle with Bill and Millie

It was so lovely and warm

Then we looked at the really nice cars?

Wow

Hard to imagine that it was two years ago

Hard to believe that my life ended two years ago 

I love you 

I miss you 

I wish I could pick you up and hold you 

Love always 

Daddy xoxo

3-25-14 hello

Good morning Sebastian and Kaitlin

Hope you are having a good week off school

I need a vacation too

One with you both would be awesome 

Alas not able to do that 

So oh well ...

Such is life

It's all good

I had a date last night 

Omg that was funny

She was awful

She cussed too much 

Considering it was the 1st date she was very vociferous 

Did t like that 

You'd think that she would have been better behaved 

Not a big deal

Won't be seeing her again 

Hopefully she'll never call 

I certainly won't call her 

Lol

Got to get out 

Got to get confidence back

It's the only way forward

She was supposed to be an Indian but she was more British than anything else

Lol

What did you do today?

I hope you had a good day 

I hope you are doing something special with your week off

I love you with all my heart

I 'miss you with all my soul

Love always 

Daddy xxx

Hi 3-24-14

Good morning Sebastian and Kaitlin

How are you?

Hope all is well

Hope you had a good Sunday

I miss you

Thank you for the text Kaitlin

Sorry I was sleeping when you texted 

I did send one back in a few minutes though

I was trying to type in the dark and it made my eyes leak! Lol

That was funny

What do you have planned for your week off?

Anything exciting?

I hope you get to do stuff 

Or at least hang out with the B's and T's

That will be fun too

Yesterday (Sunday) I walked for 10 miles by the river

That was lovely 

Got caught in two downpours but no matter 

By the time I got back to the car I'd dried off

All good

This morning I've woken up to ice on the car 

Going to be a cold one today 

Yuck

Oh well

It's all good

Hopefully it will warm up soon

April soon 

Although last year in April it snowed

Eww

I miss you 

I love you 

I wish you were here with me to hold 

I am back at 28 in Leatherhead now

I looked after the cats for two weeks and that was nice 

But I am back to being in my bed and not having cat hair all over me 

Perfect :-)

Plus Blue & Yellow are in the bed with me 

I didn't take them to the other house in case the cats thought they were chew toys

It's good cuddle 

I have a date tonight 

I hope that is ok

I am seeing an Indian woman

I don't know what she looks like

I don't know who she is 

I talked to her already and she is an Indian British person who doesn't like England either 

I will let you know how that goes 

Oh yesterday morning I drove a black Hummer H2 black on black with ugly black wheels

I didn't get it - obviously 

If I can't come to Mexico to see you (mom won't bring you) then if I have to stay to stay her maybe I should have a piece of America here?

Love you always and forever 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 3-23-14

Good morning 

How are you?

It was nice to get a text from you both last night 

That makes everything feel so much better 

Thank you 

I miss you 

I love you

Yesterday I went to the beach

If was a good day

I realize that I go a lot but I went to a new part of the beach 

Walked for hours

That was amazing 

Love to walk at the beach 

Marc at work was right 

I seem it have added weigh recently

That sux

But it is what it is 

I added 1 pound

I need to lose that 

I guess just stop eating?

Exercise more 

I will start to walk in the evenings again when I get home too 

That would make sense 

Last night it was damn cold 

Wow

There is ice on my car this morning 

Yuck

I moved back to my regular place yesterday 

In Leatherhead with Siobhan 

It's not as warm here but it sure is quieter

No sirens

No cats 

No construction 

No noise 

Nice 

Seems strange though 

I think she's happy that I returned 

But she did blame me for that wifi not working as soon as I was home 

I put that down to the rain 

Lol

It is another sunny morning 

Seems great 

Going to watch a little YouTube or I should try to sleep more

Then off for the day

Windsor might be nice 

I love you 

I miss you 

Love always 

Daddy forever xoxo

Hi 3-22-14

Good morning 

Happy Saturday 

Sami's birthday 

Do you remember Sami

I hope you do

She came to see you many times 

Jason's sister 

It's a bright Saturday morning here

Will need sunglasses out

I think I'll drive to the beach today 

A closer one

I need the beach 

I haven't been in three weeks

Wow

That's a lifetime for me

:-)

How is school

How are you?

You have next week off

That's great 

I hope you get to do something wonderful

I managed to miss your call last night 

So sorry 

It didn't beep in the night 

Wish I did 

But it was midnight my time 

I was out cold

I miss you 

I love you 

I wish I had you to come home to 

To take places 

To hike with 

Remember climbing the sand banks in Carlsbad and finding those trees Sami

That was wow

Sebastian remember the first time you went to the Maserati and Ferrari dealer 

That was wow too

Love always

Daddy xoxo

Hi 3-21-14

Good morning 

How are you?

How was your day?

Is school good?

I has lunch with grandma yesterday 

It was her birthday

Did you send her a text?

I hope so

Never mind if you didn't

She'll get over it :-)

I am ok

I think

Tired

But whatever 

Yesterday was a horrid day at the office too

Couldn't handle much more of that or many more days like it 

Wow

Manic at work with the clients 

And the employees see hell too 

Hopefully today will be somewhat better

One can only hope

Off to work soon

Butt crack of dawn!!

Lol

I miss you 

I love you 

I want to hold you 

Aunt Tina said she'd give you a hug from me 

I hope she does 

I talk to her almost every day as well - via text like I do with you 

Sometimes she responds and sometimes not 

That's ok though 

I miss aunt Tina too - she was always so very nice 

Only tonight left at Andy's and then off to Leatherhead again 

I will be back home 

No cats 

No TV

That's ok though 

I'll go back to watching the Netflix movies 

Love always 

Daddy forever xoxo

3-20-14

Good morning 

It's grandmas birthday today 

I know both in the same month :-) 

Anyway I'll be having lunch with her today 

Nikki took her to Brighton 

That was cool

She had a good time with the kids and Nikki at the sea 

Always nice

I had lunch with her last week

That was nice to 

Last night I think I got very tired 

Bummer

I was shaking and recently I have been so thirsty

It's ridiculous

Oh well it's life 

Hopefully that will go away soon

I hope I don't have diabetes 

That would be bad 

I don't want to have to live that way - like Ma and Dad 

We'll see next week maybe I should see a doctor

How are you both? 

How is your asthma K

You haven't mentioned it in a while

Is it ok?

Are you growing out of it?

They'd said you would 

That would be great if you could 

I only have 2 nights vacation left at Andy's and then I'm back to 28

I've liked having the place to myself 

It's been good

It will be a shame to leave 

I will miss the cats and their rambunctious 

I miss you more 

I love you with all my heart 

Daddy xoxo

Hi 3-19-14

Good morning 

How are you

I hope you are well

I hope you are enjoying the week in school and at home

Do,you gets lots of homework?

I hope it is not too bad

Who helps you?

Do you even need help?

Thanks for the text goodnight 

That's awesome to get that

It really means a lot to know that you are thinking of me 

I have a blind date on Monday

I emailed someone (an Indian from India not Native American) on Craigslist and she responded to me

We chatted last night - actual phone conversation 

That was great 

We kinda clicked and we're having coffee / food on Monday night 

Meeting at Starbucks in a place called Surbition

I hope she's nice 

No matter what she sure sounded a nice person on the phone 

It's exciting to be honest 

Something to think about 

I'll be nervous on Monday 

How is mom

Is she okDoes she still have a boyfriend 

Is he nice yo you?

I hope she and he are ok

I miss you so much 

I love you with all my heart 

We are three musketeers 

One for all and all for one 

Daddy forever

xoxo

Hi 3-18-14

Good morning 

How are you both?

I hope all is well

I am ok

Last night and most of yesterday was odd

I just didn't feel well

Felt horrendous 

I came home yesterday and almost passed out 

I think I was just very tired 

Not sure 

But it certainly wasn't fun

Hope you are ok

Hope school is ok

I miss you 

I love you 

I wish I were there with you 

Hugs 

Always hugs 

At Andy's where I am staying this week the cats are fine

But they have started construction on the roads and wow that is noisy 

Wow

They have a metal plate and that is just outside the window 

Lucky me

Plus it took 15 minutes extra to get into the parking lot due to traffic

Awesome :-)

I hope you have a good day 

I miss you so much

I want to come home but the Federal Government won't let me just yet

I have to wait a little while more 

Soon 

Love you 

Big long lasting hug

Daddy xoxo

Hi 3-17-14

Good morning 

It was so nice to see you and speak with you yesterday 

That made the week a great week

Awesome

You both look well

You both look great

Your hair cut looks good too Kaitlin

You still look like my Princess

That's great 

You will always be my Princess

You will always by my Sebastian 

I miss you both so much

I don't know when i can come home

I hope soon 

But that is up to the federal judge

He's thinking about it 

I needs lots of money to fight and mom doesn't really want me back 

I understand that 

I just want to hold you 

I just want to see you 

To touch your hair and hug you forever 

One day that will come 

I went to a place called Henley yesterday 

Walked for miles and miles

It was great

A nice spring day 

Rather strange for her in march

Last year it was freezing cold and snowing at this time 

Oh well

Let's hope that doesn't come this year

I love you 

I miss you 

You are everything to me

I wish I were there with you 

Love always 

Daddy xxx