Good morning Sebastian & Kaitlin
How are you?
I hope all is well
I hope that your school is going well
Are you learning new things?
What?
Are you happy in school
I hope so
I hope that your lives are going well
I am trying to pay bills there as well as here
It is not easy
Please never think that I do not want you
I do
With all my heart
I want nothing more
But it see you and talk to you I must pay the credit cards and restitution there
These take a large amount of my income and therefore it is hard to save to bring you here
I also worry that if you come I might not cope with putting you back on the plane
Or worse you won't want to go
I can't do that to mom
She does not deserve more pain and suffering and heartache
No one does
I have learned that with few exceptions I don't have friends in London or America
It's a sad realization
But it is one that I accept.
I have no choice
I have made a new friend in Jessica
She is pregnant and due to marry her significant other in the fall or early next year
She is nice
She has had a lot of heartache in the past.
I have a friend in Jean
She is a runner
She is nice too
She is black
She and I sometimes take the day together and go exploring the countryside or the beach
It's quite nice to have some company
The friends I miss are you two
You were and always will be my best friends
I miss you both so much
I cry at night sometimes with blue and yellow because all I have of you is them
It is so sad that we were split up over what happened
I lost you
I lost mom
Mom hates me now
That's ok
It's only ever been about the two of you for me
She knew that too
Maybe she just did not want to face those facts
Anyway
Today I will go to the coast
Probably with Jean
She's in central London so might not make it to me by the time I want to leave
If not I'll go alone
Work started this morning at 5am with tickets
Quite frustrating
But oh well.
Work is sometimes horrid but it is work and it pays some of the bills
Love
Daddy xoxo
Max Gascoine
0744 791 2021
(Sent from my iPad)
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