Hi 9-5-14

Good morning 

How are you both?

I received some pictures from the first days of school 

Grandma had some 

So I have them now

That's nice

You both look wonderful 

Thank you for sharing

That's great 

Today for you is picture day

I hope that you have awesome pictures taken 

That you will share these with me also

Can't wait to see them

I miss you 

It hurts that I don't see you 

It hurts that I am not with with you 

I know it's a while now

I know that it should get easier 

But it doesn't 

It gets harder and harder 

I feel further away than ever

But that is just the way that things are

What do you tell people?

Do you still say you have a daddy

Or have you replaced me ?

I hope I'm still the daddy 

That's a good feeling 

But I will understand if you've needed to replace me 

I have been thinking more and more about Mexico 

I was going to come there in April 

But that's seeming unrealistic now

I might try to get there in July 

Or if mom will not allow you to see me there then I'll stay here 

I will discuss this more with you 

I need a job there 

That's proving harder than I thought 

I might even end up staying here longer 

It's just a few more years 

I can wait 

I just don't want to wait 

I hope that school is going great 

I hope that you are having a good time there 

You should have a new package in the mail 

It has some more stuff and some money for you

There's some money for mom too 

I miss you 

It hurts 

But I love you with all my heart

I only want to be with you 

That's what matters

Off to work now 

Yeah!!

Lol

It's ok just stressful at times 

Today we're down 2 people that will make things harder than usual 

But that's life 

Love you 

Daddy xoxo