Hi Sebastian & Kaitlin
Today is grandma and grandpa's wedding anniversary.
They have been married forever.
Good for them
I'd hoped to remain married to mommy but she doesn't want daddy anymore.
It's ok, she's not to blame.
She's made the right choice.
I was a bad husband.
I am a bad father. I didn't mean to leave you. I had no choice, the Police took me.
Don't be scared of the Police though. They will always protect you.
I hope when you are older I can explain this properly to you.
Right now, I can't. Not so you'd understand fully. I'm not being patronizing, I'm being honest.
I should have changed my status, and then none of this would have happened.
But I didn't and then the bad things that happened to me happened. I can't take them back. I really wish I could.
Sebastian, not even for a second did I not love you. Ever since you were born, you and I have been linked. I feel so bad for not being there with you, for not making life easier for you. I wish I could.
I want to punch myself.
I want to hurt myself. To remedy the situation. I can't though I have to be strong for you.
Love always - daddy xxx
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