Feb 7 2014

Good morning 

How are you both

Hope all is well

Hope you re good at school

How are your grades?

Are they good 

Are you managing ok with homework?

I hope you are both doing well

How is everything else?

Does mom take you for rides?

Or you saving them up for when you see me?

Are you going to want to see me again?

Sometimes I think you'll probably not want to

I get it in my head

I think that you will hate me forever 

I hate me 

So it's ok if you do

Don't hate or blame mom

She never did anything bad 

I miss the store 

Do you?

I miss being able to be with you 

To hold you 

To play around with you 

Build forts in the front window 

Eat behind the counter 

Lunchables mmmmm

Do you still get those 

How's your weight?

You both look well

Don't get overweight though coz it's so hard to get rid of it later

Have you been to Santa Ana recently?

I always liked taking mom there 

She's probably very happy now 

She's rid of me 

I'm sure she hates me too 

It's ok though she deserves the happiness and love that someone else can give her 

Wish her well for me 

Im sad almost all the time

Coz I don't get to see you, hear your voice, touch you or be next to you

I loved going to sleep with each of you in my arms.

From the moment you were born I loved being a parent 

I miss you so much 

Daddy forever xoxo