Hi 2-21-14

Good morning Sebastian and Kaitlin

How are you 

Hope you are both well

I saw your picture in the yard and also at karate

How is karate going?

You enjoying it

I hope so

How is school

You enjoying that 

I hope so

You do know that I did not leave you right?

I was taken.

I was not supposed to have stayed in the USA but I did

It was and is home 

I love it in California

But they came for me 

They took me 

I know that it's hard to realize but I was bad for being there 

I should have been legal 

I wasn't and I have paid a dear price 

But never think I left 

I would never have left you 

I lived for you both 

You were and are my everything 

Nothing else in the world mattered to me or matters to me to 

I will always be your daddy and I miss you so very much 

I dream about showing up at school and you running to me

But I know it's a dream

When I wake up I am both happy and very sad

Happy that I have the dream 

Sad that it is not real 

That's the dream I have most nights - just after the one that reminds of being taken 

I wish I could go back in time and change this 

Change it all make it all better 

I can't 

But if I could I would 

Missing you very much today 

Missing you more and more every day 

Seeing rare glimpses of you growing up makes it harder and harder 

I can only wish that one day soon I will see you again

Hold you 

I want to hold you forever

Do you love me 

Do you miss me 

I hope you do 

I hope that you are both ok

I hope that everything at school and home is good

You can call / text me at any time 

Love always 

Daddy xoxo