Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Hi 5-7-14

Good morning 

How are you?
How is school
I'm glad that we texted yesterday Sebastian
It's great that we text
I miss you so much that I need to have some form of communication
I hope that you are ok with that 

Grandma said something that worries me
That maybe once I can come back to the States that you'll not want me 
That you'll be over me 
Are you over me
Do you still want me 
Have you found a better father?
I will understand if you don't want me, or if you found someone better
But il will never give up on us
I can't ever think if a time when you are not 100% of my life 

Work is ok
This morning the emails and alarms were going off at 12-3am
That makes it a longer day than even usual
But that's life 
I try to take care of as much as possible 

Both Nikki and Fiona are having hard times with their children
Nikki's step daughter is cutting herself and Ben is doing that too
I understand because I did it when I first got back here 
It helped to feel better 
I only did it a few times 

I gave offered to help both of them
Not sure whether my help is useful or not 
Perhaps 
But I guess if they need / want it they will help

I miss you 
I love you 

I hope and pray that you are ok 
I know how much pain you've been through and how hard life is for you 
I wish that I could take all that pain away and make things better for you 

Love always 
Daddy xoxo 

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