Hi 7-26-14

Good morning Sebastian and Kaitlin

I hope you had a Good Friday 

I miss you and love you 

I wish I were there with you 

I truly do

I miss you with all my heart 

I can't stand being apart from you 

It hurts 

I fight all the time with people here because it hurts so much to be apart 

Fiona finally almost realized what it means to not see her kids everyday 

But she can't understand the permanent part as Ben and Millie will return it her on Sunday

No one really gets it 

I try to share things that I see here with you 

I hope that keeps me in your mind and in your hearts 

That's all I can ask for 

I will go to the beach and take pictures again today 

I will email a link for those to you (via text) as I think I might stop adding to Facebook 

I added a picture of the Denali (Sherry's car and the one that I will use in Mexico) it Facebook and git yelled at by others for it 

So I guess people still troll me all the time 

Oh well

That's what Facebook is for 

Hate 

Lol

I miss you so much

I can't believe it's been 23 almost 24 months since I was there in America and more than 2 years since I saw you 

God it's a very a long time 

I know that the relationship we had once will never materialize again and that we'll be forever rebuilding 

It makes me want to cry 

Really and truly 

I hated that I was ripped away from you 

I would never have left your side 

I couldn't leave your side 

I needed you 

I still need you 

You are mini me's and that I all I ever wanted - children

You are perfect children too 

I never complained about you 

I never under estimated you 

I have always believed in you 

I always will believe in you 

You are everything to me 

I miss you 

It hurts 

I hope you have a good day today 

Love you always and forever 

Daddy xoxo