Hi July 29 2014

Good morning Sebastian and Kaitlin

How are you?

I hope you are well

I hope that you are spending the remainder of your summer vacation well

I hope next year that you can see me in Mexico

That would be nice 

That would be awesome to be honest 

With some luck by Christmas I will have the restitution paid off

Then I will have more of the credit card bills paid by mid year next  year 

That is the goal

Once those bills are paid mom should allow you to come and visit me 

I certainly hope so anyway 

That is what she has said in the past 

That she won't let you see me until the bills are fully paid 

So that's is the ultimate goal

I wish I could pay them immediately but it is very hard work living here 

This month has cost all the money that I had with the car damage and buying a new one and all that crap

So sorry 

Last night I saw a movie called about time

It was about a dad who could travel back to where he'd been

At the end of the movie the dad and the son travelled back together to when the son was a little boy 

It made me remember and think of the times in the store that we were together 

That we ate together that we played with the lego together and more so much more 

It made me cry 

I don't mind admitting that I cried because I miss you both so much 

It is hard for me to be so alone 

To constantly think about the loss of the two of you 

You are there 

I am here 

But the distance between us is so vast that we can't get together just yet 

Nothing in the world matters more to me than you 

I will do whatever I can to be closer to you physically and emotionally 

I need you 

I can only hope that you will need me in the future and that you'll always think of me as your dad

It's all I ever wanted 

Children that I could love and spoil with my time and friendship 

Mom said I am a good friend but a terrible husband 

I hope that I am a good father 

Or at least that I was a good father 

I love you 

I miss you 

I wish I could hold you 

It's over 2 years since I saw you face to face 

It's coming up for 2 years since I was deported from home 

I only want to come back 

Your dad

Today, tomorrow and forever xoxo