Hi 8-15-14

Hi Sebastian and Kaitlin

How are you today

The camping at home looks good 

Saw the pictures that mom put on Facebook

That's awesome 

What a great idea 

Where did you get the tents from 

I hope you had a good time

I wish I was the to camp with you 

Looks like a blast

Love you 

Today marks 2 years since I was forced to return here 

I hate it her without you 

I wish I could hold you 

I wish I could see you 

I miss you 

You mean everything to me 

You are everything to me 

You are all that matters to me 

I cried myself to sleep last night 

Not sure whether I should be ashamed of that of not 

It's not normally right for a guy to cry

But I lost the most important people in life 

My children

You are always going to be all that matters to me 

I just hate the moments that I am nit with you 

It's 781 days since I was able to hold your hand 6-25-12

861 days since I saw you smile 4-4-12

862 days since I laid down and hugged you 

That's a long long long time 

I still have that to go until I see you again 

It's hurtful and it's hard work 

I am tired 

I no longer want to wait to be with you 

I want to be there now 

God I miss you 

I pray that we'll see each other in person soon

Maybe next year 

If it has to be Mexico then so be it

I love you 

I always have and I always will

You are the motivation for getting up 

You are the motivation for me being alive 

You are my everything 

Today will be hard 

Hopefully for you your friends are there and you don't really remember the day that I had to go

I will never give up trying to get you back 

Love 

Today, tomorrow and forever 

Your only daddy xoxo